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Jacqueline
Guest
Hello, pastor. I'm a ###-yrs. old and I've been trying to turn my ways and life over to God. I know that this is the right thing to do, but my past of darkness keep being thrown in my face. See, I gave up on life for many years, because of not seeing clearly the things that were happening in my life, from my childhood, my teen years, I felt unaccepted people in my life, in my childhood there was abandonment by my mother and father, then from the time I was 12yrs. I had been raped twice. I tried to keep these things to myself, so I started isolating, and closing down. By the time I was 20yrs. I couldn't trust anyone, I was so angry and mad, so I went to using drugs to get take away the pain, but after a while it didn't work anymore, then I ended up selling my body, where more abuse came and I stayed out there for over 27yrs. Now I've sought help from Christian people that help me to know who I'm loved by the most, and that is our God! Things seem harder than ever before. And I know that God has more for me than what's being thrown at me, like angry children, my mother not believing that I'm going to make it this way, can't seem to find a job, or an income, having to live anywhere I can, this has been going on for two years now, and I listen to you every Sunday, you have really touched me, to keep believing that I too can succeed in life. Because sometimes I think that God has left me and I know I can't have him leave me, he's all I got. There's no one else that can help me, Please tell me what to do, to have a change within myself, because I BELIEVE THAT THERE'S SOMETHING I'M DOING, THAT I CAN'T SEE! If you would pray for me, I'll be more than grateful!
