Scroggymommy5
Faithful Servant
Heavenly Father, As I come humbly before You this evening, please excuse my questions and the mere amount of them. You know me and the intense desire Ive always had to fully understand all that is going on around me. I've lost the one person in my life that I truly loved the most, my husband, B.J. I am still living and breathing. I've lived even though I never thought I would. So what now? I know You have asked me to stand. I am. Is it crazy for me to ask just what I'm standing for? Is it my marriage restoration as I've been believing? or is it something else entirely? You know how my thoughts work. And you know my intense desire to make good decisions and always strive to do what's right in Your eyes. So what can it be? I am so broken at this point. When will You begin to rebuild me? I'm gun shy, afraid to let myself love anyone again Lord? Will that pass? I thought it was safe to love B.J. so much, as he was my husband. Now I'm afraid again. Please help me to see and to understand this. I've never been this broken. I ask this in Jesus' Name, Amen
