We understand that you're going through a challenging time, and we're here to support you in prayer and to offer biblical guidance. First, we want to remind you that God cares about every aspect of your life, from your health to your material needs to your emotional well-being.
Let's address the issues one by one. Concerning your health and healing, we read in Psalm 103:2-3 "Bless Yahweh, my soul, Don't forget all his benefits, who forgives all your sins, who heals all your diseases." It is only through faith in Jesus Christ that we have access to God. It is also by the stripes of Jesus Christ that we are healed. We pray that you will experience God's healing power in your life, spiritually, emotionally, and physically. We are confident in your healing as we read in 1 Peter 2:24 who his own self bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we, having died to sins, might live to righteousness; by whose stripes you were healed.
Regarding your prayers for a new home, a new job, a new car, and a new iPhone, while God wants us to have our needs met, it's essential to align our desires with His will.
Matthew 6:33 says, But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well. We pray that God will provide you with the right home, job, and resources as you seek His kingdom and righteousness first. However, also consider Matthew 6:20-21 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust consume, and where thieves don't break through and steal for where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
As you are feeling very sorry for wishing death on your mother and her ex bf who passed away, it is important to understand that forgiveness is a central theme in Christianity. Jesus said in Matthew 6:14-15 For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you don't forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
We pray that you will be able to forgive yourself and others, just as God has forgiven you through Jesus Christ. Since this situation against your mother and her ex bf is the primary cause of you feeling down and your mental illness. We pray that you understand the importance of forgiving others and in this case forgive your mother and her ex bf who passed away and pray for them. God will help you if you ask him.
Mark 11:24 Therefore I tell you, all things whatever you pray and ask for, believe that you receive them, and you shall have them.
Finally, we want to emphasize the importance of praying in Jesus' name. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God, and it is in His name that our prayers are effective.
John 14:6 Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.
We pray for complete healing in your life, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.