Joe
Humble Prayer Partner
Please do not judge. Kathy and I are not married. Before we started going to church, we moved in together. She is the mother of three beautiful children ages 15, 14 and 4. Kathy and I are also foster parents to a 3 year old little girl. We have been engaged for over a year and a half. Over the past few months Kathy and I have had some difficulties cancelling the engagement and future life together. I had done some things that caused her to question her trust in me. I have asked for forgiveness from God as well as Kathy. She is having a tough time and rightfully so. She is conflicted. We have our days where she is less than tolerant of me, and other times where we are able to communicate the way we used to when we first started dating.
To my surprise, she called me this morning asking me if we could take on another child. This is an infant who is 5 months old. The baby has been beaten. The baby is probably blind, on a feeding tube and has seizures. The health of the baby is serious at the presnt time. Without hesitation I said absolutely. I was excited in so many ways yet saddened that an innocent child has endured this torture. Kathy later sent me a text telling me that we were not getting the baby. I was disappointed on so many levels. Kathy is a nurse and I am a medic and could provide the necessary care this baby would require.
I think that I was being a little selfish as well. I anticipated that a baby in this condition would require Kathy and I to work together; be the team that I know we are meant to be. I ask for healing for the baby that suffered at the hand of his/her abuser. I am not sure what kind of life this baby will have. God I ask that you give this baby your blessing and healing touch. I also pray that Kathy and I heal from my sin committed against her. I have since turned my life around. I pray that Kathy and I are able to restore our relatiionship. Let us continue our relationship together filled with God's love. I pray that we are able to continue to foster or even adopt others that require our unconditional love. Lord, I love you with all of my heart soul, mind body and strength. Let us show that love to one another. Holy Spirit, give us the strength to fight all evil. I ask this in Jesus name.
To my surprise, she called me this morning asking me if we could take on another child. This is an infant who is 5 months old. The baby has been beaten. The baby is probably blind, on a feeding tube and has seizures. The health of the baby is serious at the presnt time. Without hesitation I said absolutely. I was excited in so many ways yet saddened that an innocent child has endured this torture. Kathy later sent me a text telling me that we were not getting the baby. I was disappointed on so many levels. Kathy is a nurse and I am a medic and could provide the necessary care this baby would require.
I think that I was being a little selfish as well. I anticipated that a baby in this condition would require Kathy and I to work together; be the team that I know we are meant to be. I ask for healing for the baby that suffered at the hand of his/her abuser. I am not sure what kind of life this baby will have. God I ask that you give this baby your blessing and healing touch. I also pray that Kathy and I heal from my sin committed against her. I have since turned my life around. I pray that Kathy and I are able to restore our relatiionship. Let us continue our relationship together filled with God's love. I pray that we are able to continue to foster or even adopt others that require our unconditional love. Lord, I love you with all of my heart soul, mind body and strength. Let us show that love to one another. Holy Spirit, give us the strength to fight all evil. I ask this in Jesus name.
