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Prayer Partner
I pray for great health. I want my health to get better so I can work, be happy, and not be down. I don't work; I haven't worked in a really long time. I used to work at a retail store but quit because I felt sick. I felt as if I wasn't in good health. I didn't like the lady that was working there; I felt like she was way too close towards me when I was sitting down and when I was training. I didn't like the other manager as well. I hated getting up in the morning and catching the bus. I pray for healing in my fingers. The guy upstairs makes a whole bunch of noise, and I feel as if he's attacking my hands. He's trying to intimidate me and trying to read through my mind. He was attacking my hands and arms for a very long time. I wasn't even looking like myself. I pray that I learn how to cook. I pray for better days. I pray to learn how to exercise. I get tired quickly; my legs feel weak and heavy at the same time, and even my arms. I am so weak and depressed. I suffer from schizophrenia. I wake up and scream in my sleep. I feel as if I am going to get robbed, like as if somebody is going to break in inside of the apartment. When I'm at the guy's house who I'm dating, it's a big apartment. I pray to find someone that loves me and wants to be with only me. The guy I'm with wants to marry more than one woman at a time. I felt as if maybe I could do it because I liked him so badly. I just pray to find a man that wants me just as bad as I want him. I would love to work and start my own family one day. I pray for healing and that my confidence goes back up. I pray that my body heals. I pray for my face and my legs and hands, arms, spine, everything. I pray for it to heal so I can have a straight posture. I pray that my brain heals and my nerves. I pray for God to forgive me from all of my past sins. I pray for a new home so that I don't have to live underneath this man anymore or even stay and live inside of the building that I stay in for years. I hated this apartment. I've been living here ever since I was in high school, and I would like to stay somewhere else, maybe move to another city, another town. I want to grow and heal and be happy. I pray for my mouth to heal for my tongue, my toes, everything. I pray for it to heal. I feel as if something strange is happening towards me. I pray for a clear mind. I pray for peace, love, joy, and happiness. I pray to heal from my past. I wasn't the best woman, and I talked bad about my cousin, and ever since then, I haven't really been myself. I pray that I can forgive myself for talking bad of her. I want to heal from saying bad things of her in her face. I know she doesn't like me; she talked down on me towards her mother and told her mother that she didn't like me, but I never did anything towards her. I tried to be nice towards her, and she brushed it off. She would buy her brother food and my brother but wouldn't buy me anything. I don't think she ever liked me. She felt as if I'm a toxic woman, and she always used to walk weird around me. I noticed that never speaking, even acting weird around my grandmother, and when I walked past her before when I was at my grandmother's house, she had moved her foot, and she would always say things about me. She came to my house a long time ago, and when she came, she didn't speak and spoke with my brother, and I felt as if they were speaking badly of me. I pray that I heal and get back to myself. I feel as if I wasted most of my time living with my aunt and not taking good care of my health. Always staying around them, the environment wasn't what I expected it to be. Me and my mother weren't getting along for a very long time, and I also feel as if that had stressed me out. I pray for healing and that I get back to myself. My body doesn't look or feel the same. I just want to be healthy and happy. I don't want to kill myself. I wanted to harm myself before because of what I had said of my mother and her bf. I felt as if I had done the wrong thing. This guy upstairs makes a lot of noise, and he's attacking my body. I feel as if he's attacking my health, my body, my breathing, my head, everything, and something strange had felt as if it had happened towards me a very long time ago. I haven't been myself for years. I've been worried and stressed out, catching attitudes with folks, being around women who weren't really my friends, bad vibes, friends mistreating me, friends messing around with my exes and not telling me. One of my friends I had started texting my ex and kept taking things from him. He would always ask of her. He would mistreat me and speak towards me any type of way, and I hated that he would call me bipolar and he talked bad about me. He called me names, threw jokes on me, and I hated that I felt as if he was evil and mean towards me. He was older than me but lied on me to folks on social media and said that I had cheated on him when I never did. I don't know why he said that. He never wanted me to go outside, and he would always text me. I didn't like him that much. I didn't like the other first guy that I dated that much either. He used to say good morning to women online. He would play a lot of games online, speaking, flirting with women even when he was by my house on the computer. He would still flirt with other women. I felt at one point he was going to a different town to meet up with women, him and his friends. I pray to meet a good man who treats me well, who is faithful, loyal, and not a liar or a cheater. I've always been a good woman. I don't cheat unless someone does something towards me, but that only happened when I was with that dude. I pray for healing. I pray for protection from whatever is going on out here out in this world. I pray for better days and that I heal and start to take better care of myself. I pray for a new home so I can relax and be easy, not stressed or worried about folks. I had rude people come up towards me at my workplace, rude co-workers, fake and jealous. I hated it. I used to be mad and would cry inside of the bathroom all of the time. I pray for healing and that I do find a job that pays me good, one where I'm able to work and not worry about the pay. I pray the pay is enough for me to be able to provide for myself and for me to be able to take care of myself. I pray for my head to heal and go back to normal. For years, I've been stressed out, staying with my aunt, barely coming out of the room and speaking with my cousin. I hated living with my aunt and her daughter. I tried to change and be nice towards them, but I don't think they wanted me there. After a while, I saw the look on my aunt's face when her bf would feed me and share his food with me. He gave me fast food; he always would share and bring me food and cook for me. I pray that I heal and learn how to cook, bake, and make my own food. I pray that I don't travel that far to find peace of mind and that I learn how to love myself more and learn how to take care of myself more, shower, cook, eat healthier foods, brush my teeth. Right now, my teeth don't look as white as they should. I wasn't brushing my teeth every day. I pray that I take very good care of myself. I didn't want to shower. I would go days without showering because I didn't feel health-wise. I didn't feel good. I didn't have the motivation or the passion to do it, and I was hating myself and my situation. I felt like I should have done things differently. I wanted to harm myself badly. I didn't care. I hated myself. I felt guilty for wishing death on my mother and her bf. They were mistreating me and talking very bad about me. Well, my mother had talked bad of me and told him things of me that weren't true. I pray that I heal and get back to myself. I pray for better days. I pray for my well-being to be better. I used to be angry all the time and would drink my problems away. I pray that I learn how to stay strong and stay focused. I take medication right now because of mental illness and me constantly traveling to different states or towns to visit hospitals, talking bad of my hands. They thought something else was wrong with me. I had gotten transferred to a different hospital when I was at a hospital. The psychiatrist or the woman who I had to speak with who had asked me things, questions, she said I was to be evaluated because of my attitude and sent me to another different hospital for about a month. I didn't like it. I hated it. The only thing I did was eat and sleep. I didn't want to speak to those other people who were there. I didn't want to room with another woman. I wanted to go home. When I stayed there, that left me sad and depressed. I was far away from home and was having to get along with my surroundings and having to take medication every day. I'm not mentally ill or sick or crazy. I know that I wasn't myself, and that my cousin kept staring at me when I was staying there with her, and I hated it. I didn't like her. She didn't like me as well, and she would only speak with the people who lived there before I stayed there with them. I want my own spot. I want my very own apartment so that I don't have to go to hospitals for a place to stay or for food to eat. Me and my mother had our differences and would go back and forth with each other. It was almost two years that we had went without television. I didn't have anything but a bible. I didn't even have that. I didn't have a phone, a job, or anything. I pray that I find a very well-paying job so that I don't have to be homeless, poor, or any of those things. I get food stamps as well, and I also applied for benefits for SSI but had gotten denied. I told them that I could work and do things, and they didn't approve of me. I pray that I heal and get back to myself. I pray for happiness. I pray for my body to heal and for my mind to heal as well. I pray to heal from mental illness and that I don't have to take medication to stabilize my mood or for my illness to be balanced so I don't have to keep going towards many different hospitals. I couldn't take staying with my aunt or staying with her daughter. I hated it. I felt as if she was rude towards me and that she didn't like me when I had said hi to her. She ignored me and started to stand next towards my brother. When I was standing in the living room next to her when she was doing laundry, she started to turn on the lights and she had turned the lights on right in front of my face and didn't say excuse me. I felt as if she was standing by the bathroom door too often. I didn't even come out of the bathroom yet, and she was standing there rushing me. I hated that and didn't like that. I wanted to tell her to wait and that I wasn't done or finished. She also used to roll her eyes soon as I would come out of the bathroom, and I hated that. I didn't want to walk past her. I would be showering and doing my thing, handling business inside of the bathroom, and she would be rushing me. I pray that I get back to myself and that I heal and not focus on the trauma and the discomfort that she brought me. Her stepfather had asked me if I had spoken with her. He noticed that me and her didn't speak, and he told me that she had said she didn't like me. She didn't even want to buy me food when I was staying over there. She was rude towards me always, and I don't ever remember doing anything towards her. She was jealous or just mad that I was there. I would always see her staring at me. I never did anything towards her. I pray to heal and get back to myself. I hated living with her and her mother. I also felt as if her brother didn't want me there for some strange reason. I pray that I heal and get back to myself and be strong, brave, bold, and happy. I pray for happier times, better days. I pray for a new bike and a new iPhone as well. I pray for my father to move away from the program he's in and for him to take very good care of himself. He suffers from mental illness. He's a Muslim. I pray that his mind is restored back to good health as well as his body. He's older now, but I want him to grow and heal and be much healthier and much better. I pray for healing from mental illness. I pray for mental illness to come off of my medical records. I pray for my body odor to heal and for it to go away. I never smelled this way before. Ever since I was staying with my aunt, body odor arrived. I wasn't showering. I felt as if the neighbors were listening towards me. I pray that I heal and get back to myself. I pray that I become more truthful and that I stop running away from my problems and stop messing around with grown men for a place to stay when I didn't have any place to stay. I hated staying in the building and living with my aunt, so I would travel to many different towns, spending my days catching buses. I gained enemies as well, and I would just love to heal and become a better person. I don't want to be poor or homeless. I feel like beefing with my mother. I wasted so much time. I would go at it with her for years. I hated living with her, speaking with her, or just being around. I pray that things do get better for me and that I learn how to care for myself more and that I stop hanging around negative folks and that I heal from trying to see my friend who was messing around with my ex. He tried to sleep with her. She admitted that to me, and he knew that me and her were friends, and he went and tweeted when you choose the wrong friend as if he didn't choose the attractive one. I only dated him because he hit me up first. I just wanted to cheat back on my ex for not hitting me up and not writing me for weeks. I pray that I heal and get back to myself. I was dating the wrong kind of men, and that really frustrated me and messed with me. People were just mad with me. I pray that I heal and get back to myself. I pray for brighter days. I pray that I learn to love myself more and not have anyone disrespect or mistreat me. The man I'm with always tells me that my hair looks crazy. He cut my hair for me and told me that I need to take better care of my hair. I pray for healthier hair and that I do start to take better care of it. I pray that it grows back even though I had cut my hair and I made a mistake, rushing, being anxious, and cut it crooked. I pray for confidence. I pray to heal from low self-esteem, from anxiety, depression, low self-esteem. I pray that I get back to myself. I pray for my neck to heal. The chiropractor doctor told me that I had lost the curve in my neck, and I haven't been feeling like myself. I used to always be angry, especially with my brother. I don't trust him. He used to want to fight with me all the time, and he wants to rely on the government for assistance. I pray that I heal and get back to myself. I pray for a car. I pray that I learn how to drive. I pray for healing from my past and living with my mother. I pray that I can be independent and move out and have my own place. I pray for complete joy and happiness. I pray for my grandmother and for her legs to heal. I pray for good health and for better days.