Healing the past and moving forward. Prayers please

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I would like prayer support for working through emotional wounds from a toxic environment. I was singled out and assigned a heavier workload than other colleagues in my job title. I was berated in staff meetings and physically and emotionally abused. Left out of important meetings. During that time, I tried very hard to do better (which was a huge mistake under those circumstances) and sought mercy from the perpetrators and higher ups, which worsened the situation. Even though I wanted to have a new job lined up, it was impossible. Therefore, I escaped (resigned) quietly with the intention to heal first as I didn’t want to carry baggage into the next job. I suppose that false guilt, misplaced loyalty, and external voices influenced my decision to stick it out for longer than normal. I still have nightmares about that toxic place almost two years out. I couldn’t understand why I was targeted. That said, I am asking the Lord in Jesus name to forgive me for not being strong enough to endure that trial. I also ask that He please remove guilt and shame that comes with this situation. Lord, please help me to forgive the abusers. I always wondered what was going on in their hearts and minds to act so cruelly. Why was there no compassion or remorse toward me? I also pray that the Lord would lead me to a better job as I am applying and fell behind in rent. Sometimes fear creeps in and says, “you should have stayed.” “You’re a coward for leaving.” “Why would you quit without having another offer in hand.” “No one will hire you.” All lies which I rebuke in Jesus name.
 
We hear your pain and the deep wounds left by this toxic environment, and we stand with you in prayer, lifting every burden to the Lord. You have endured so much—unjust treatment, abuse, and the lingering effects of trauma that still haunt you even now. But we declare over you that this is not the end of your story. The Lord sees your suffering, and He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). You did not deserve what happened to you, and it was not a reflection of your worth or strength. The enemy would love for you to remain trapped in shame, guilt, and fear, but we rebuke those lies in Jesus’ name. You are not a coward—you are a survivor. You did not fail; you made the wisest choice you could under impossible circumstances.

First, we want to address the false guilt and shame you carry. The Lord does not hold you responsible for the sins of others. You sought mercy where there was none to give, and that was not a mistake—it was a reflection of your Christ-like heart. But you must release yourself from the weight of their cruelty. Jesus bore your shame on the cross, and He calls you to walk in freedom (Isaiah 54:4). You are not defined by what they did to you; you are defined by who God says you are—loved, chosen, and redeemed (1 Peter 2:9). The nightmares, the fear, the "what-ifs"—these are not from God. We rebuke the spirit of torment in Jesus’ name and declare peace over your mind (2 Timothy 1:7). The Lord will restore what was stolen from you, including your sense of security and purpose.

Forgiveness is a difficult but necessary step, not for their sake, but for yours. We pray that the Lord would soften your heart toward those who harmed you, not because they deserve it, but because you deserve the freedom that comes from releasing bitterness. Their cruelty reveals the condition of their own hearts, not yours. Romans 12:19 reminds us, "Don’t seek revenge yourselves, beloved, but give place to God’s wrath. For it is written, 'Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord.'" Trust that God sees their actions and will deal with them justly. Your role is to forgive and let Him handle the rest.

Now, we lift up your job search and financial struggles. The enemy would love for you to believe the lie that no one will hire you or that you’ll never recover, but we declare that God has a plan for your provision (Jeremiah 29:11). You are not behind—you are right where God wants you to be, and He will open doors no man can shut (Revelation 3:8). We pray for favor in your applications, wisdom in your interviews, and divine connections that lead to the right opportunity. The Lord knows your needs, and He will not abandon you (Matthew 6:31-32). We rebuke the spirit of fear and declare boldness over you as you step forward in faith.

Lastly, we want to encourage you to seek godly community and perhaps professional counseling if the wounds run deep. You do not have to heal alone. The body of Christ is called to bear one another’s burdens (Galatians 6:2), and there is no shame in needing support. Surround yourself with people who will speak life over you and remind you of God’s promises.

Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our brother/sister, lifting up every wound, every fear, and every lie that has taken root in their heart. Lord, You are the God who heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds (Psalm 147:3). We ask that You would pour out Your peace over them, silencing the voices of condemnation and replacing them with Your truth. Father, we pray for complete healing—emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Remove every trace of shame and guilt, for You have not given them a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7).

We ask that You would lead them to the right job, Lord—a place where they are valued, respected, and able to thrive. Provide for their needs, Father, and open doors that no man can shut. We pray for supernatural favor and provision, that they would lack no good thing (Psalm 34:10). Lord, we also ask that You would help them to forgive those who harmed them. Soften their heart, Father, and help them to release bitterness so that they can walk in the freedom You have for them.

We rebuke every lie of the enemy in Jesus’ name—every thought of inadequacy, every fear of the future, every whisper that says they are not enough. We declare that they are more than conquerors through Christ who loves them (Romans 8:37). Strengthen them, Lord, and remind them that You are their refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). We trust You to restore what has been lost and to lead them into the abundant life You have promised.

In Jesus’ mighty name, we pray. Amen.
 
We're here for you, dear friend. We understand that the emotional wounds from that toxic environment run deep, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. We want you to know that you're not alone in this healing journey. Together, let's cast those heavy burdens at the foot of the cross, trusting that Jesus will meet you right where you are.

First, let's address the guilt and shame that's been weighing you down. Remember, Jesus took all of that upon Himself on the cross. He didn't just die for your sins; He also died to set you free from the chains of guilt and shame. So, let it go, dear one. You're not defined by what happened to you, but by who God says you are - loved, chosen, and redeemed.

We also want to encourage you to forgive, not because the other person deserves it, but because you deserve the freedom that comes from releasing bitterness. Forgiveness doesn't mean what happened was okay, but it's a choice to let go of the hurt and trust God for justice.

As for your job search, we believe that God has a plan for your provision. You're not behind; you're right where God wants you to be. Trust that He will open doors no man can shut. We're praying for favor, wisdom, and divine connections that will lead you to the right opportunity.

Lastly, dear friend, we encourage you to seek godly community and perhaps professional counseling if the wounds run deep. You don't have to heal alone. Surround yourself with people who will speak life over you and remind you of God's promises.

In Jesus' mighty name, we pray for complete healing, emotional, mental, and spiritual. We ask that He would remove every trace of shame and guilt, and replace them with His peace and truth. We trust Him to lead you to the right job, provide for your needs, and open doors that no man can shut. We also ask that He would help you to forgive, so that you can walk in the freedom He has for you.

We declare over you that you are more than a conqueror through Christ who loves you. Strengthen you, Lord, and remind you that He is your refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. We trust Him to restore what has been lost and lead you into the abundant life He has promised.

In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
 
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