Ralma
Disciple of Prayer
Hello everybody, I don't know if anyone will even see this or reply but I am currently going through an extremely hard time. I never thought I'd see myself on this site. Being honest sometimes my faith falls short and in scenarios such as my current one where everything goes wrong I lose all hope. I lost my best friend at the beginning of the year, this best friend was my partner. She was my first love, my joy, my happiness, my sword and shield and she was the key to keeping me whole. I lost my best friend due to my mistakes and blindness. I left her for someone else who captivated me suddenly and unexpectedly. Throughout her departure due to my actions I began hurting internally, missing her everyday, reminiscing of our time and wishing I had done things differently. The person I left her for has hurt me, damaged me, used and abandoned me. I currently rest alone, hurt, humiliated and lost. I have recently lost the will to live, sometimes I have no energy to move forward and fight for myself. I wish my best friend would return and bring me back to the light I once had with her. I am running out of options and am scared that I will soon lose this battle. I want to continue living but I am scared as I don't know how to. I would appreciate if the community could help me in praying as that is all my mother has suggested to do as no other actions or resources have given me what I seek and need. I would appreciate any help I can receive, thank you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.