Dear Hurting, we often go through these kind of troubles, so we may draw closer to God, i know the pain you feeling inside very well, losing someone you love with all your heart & soul is not easy, take heart, have faith that God will hear your prayer & will make the situation better, God doesnt allow divorce, so he will heal your relationship with the man you, love, just pray harder push (pray until something happens)....we are all sinners, no one is perfect, God would never expect you to be, but when you confess your sins to him, be truthful & honest, pray... you will see the amazing things he can do for you.
I pray that, your marriage is restored, that God knits your hearts together, forever, erase all pain, hurts, mistakes, rejection, resentment, that you are both given new hearts and God's will be done in your household, that your kids hearts are healed,and you become a happy annointed, blessed family, in Jesus name, amen!