I'm sorry you going through this. I will pray for you no pain. I will ask god to find you love. one thing in that. I've learned you must love yourself, and complete yourself, and have faith and believe in god. trust me god will find you love and man that is meant to be. it may not always be who you think or when we want it. Ive been asking god along time. I had a divorce several relationships, that I know now were to prepare me for the man god finally brought me. He is a guy I dated my sr year in highschool for just a few months. And he was still always close by just a state away, all these years of not to far away from each other. and know 25 years later, were together. We reconnected a year in half ago. and have been dating for 8 months. so don't give up on love. I know god brought us together for a reason, even though I know hes the man I waited for from god. it has not been easy. we have struggles, because of divorces and issues with kids and just obsticals in life that test us and will continue to. im sorry I have gotten off of you, I just wanted you to know that power of prayer and faith and believing do create gods miricales. And that even when that miracal or prayer is answered we still have to keep praying and have faith, and still pray for what god has given us and be thankful.