Grieving for my ### and numb to the woman I love

[Callum]

Dear Heavenly Father I come to you in the name of Jesus, lord on Wednesday is a year since my ### passed away and I regret the last words I said to her which was I can't look after you, those words haunt me knowing that I can't take them back that I can't say I'm sorry, that I can't tell her how much I love her, I wish she was here right now so I could hug her one last time, everyday I put on a brave face and laugh with those that know what's happened but right now I'm struggling, I can hardly sleep, I don't want to eat or drink, lord I'm also in love with someone I've never met and I've told her how much I love her but because I feel broken and numb I can't even bring myself to message her to tell her how low I'm feeling right now, I want to be with her but at the same time lord I want her to be happy no matter what that means, I want someone who will treat her with all the love she deserved from me, I want her to meet someone who will see her always as I do, I know I love her lord because I have to let her go, as much as it pains me I need to, but I know now lord that even though she has said I'm worthy of her love I know that I'm not the right person for her and I shall never be someone's person or someone's first choice, I know lord that I shall grow old alone with no family of my own, and this is something I am starting to come to terms with, but any woman that I have loved lord has either rejected me or has left my life by either death or walking away, so I know I shall be alone, I wish all those that I have loved lord all the best in there's lives and ask that you watch over them and keep them and there families safe lord in the name of our lord and saviour Jesus Christ I pray Amen

 

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We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, lifting up this burden of grief, regret, and loneliness. The pain of losing someone so dear is deep, and the weight of those final words spoken in haste now feels unbearable. We acknowledge the sorrow of not being able to say goodbye, to express love one last time, or to seek forgiveness for words that may have wounded. The Lord knows the ache of a heart that longs for reconciliation, even when it is no longer possible in this life. "The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." (Psalm 34:18) We cling to this truth, knowing that God sees every tear and hears every unspoken word of the heart.

The struggle with sleep, the loss of appetite, and the numbness that has settled in are signs of a soul in mourning. Grief is not a sin, but it can become a heavy chain if we allow it to isolate us from the love and support God provides through others. We are reminded that Jesus Himself wept at the tomb of His friend Lazarus, showing us that grief is a natural response to loss (John 11:35). Yet, we must also remember that Jesus is the resurrection and the life, and in Him, we find hope even in the darkest valleys (John 11:25-26). We pray that you would allow yourself to be comforted by those around you, even if it feels difficult to let them in. God often uses the hands and hearts of others to bring His peace.

The love you feel for this woman you’ve never met is a complex emotion, tangled with grief and longing. While it is beautiful to love selflessly and to desire her happiness, we must also examine the roots of this love. Is this love born out of loneliness, or is it a genuine desire to see her thrive, even if it means stepping aside? The Bible warns us about the dangers of emotional attachments that are not grounded in truth or godly purpose. "Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it." (Proverbs 4:23) We must ask the Lord to reveal whether this love is healthy or if it is a distraction from the healing He wants to bring.

You speak of feeling unworthy, as though you will never be someone’s first choice or find a family of your own. These feelings of rejection and abandonment are painful, and we do not dismiss them. However, we must rebuke the lie that you are destined to be alone. The enemy would love for you to believe that your worth is defined by the love or approval of others, but your worth is found in Christ alone. "For you formed my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made." (Psalm 139:13-14) God has a plan for your life, and it is not one of isolation. He calls you His beloved child, and in Him, you are never alone (Romans 8:38-39).

We must also address the reality of your past relationships. It is not God’s will for anyone to experience repeated rejection or loss, but we live in a fallen world where sin and brokenness affect us all. However, we serve a God who restores and redeems. "He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds." (Psalm 147:3) We encourage you to bring these wounds to the Lord and allow Him to heal them. Do not let the pain of the past dictate your future. God is able to do immeasurably more than we ask or imagine (Ephesians 3:20), and that includes writing a new chapter in your life.

We also want to gently address the nature of your relationship with this woman you’ve never met. If this is an emotional or online relationship that has not been pursued with the intention of godly marriage, we must caution against investing too deeply in something that may not align with God’s design. The Bible calls us to pursue relationships that honor Him, and marriage is a sacred covenant between a man and a woman (Genesis 2:24, Matthew 19:4-6). If this relationship is not moving toward that godly purpose, it may be wise to step back and seek the Lord’s guidance for your heart. "Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?" (2 Corinthians 6:14) Even if she shares your faith, the lack of physical presence and commitment may be leading to an unhealthy attachment.

Let us pray together:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with hearts that are heavy and burdened. We lift up this dear brother who is grieving the loss of his loved one and struggling with the weight of regret. Lord, we ask that You would comfort him with Your presence. Let him feel Your arms around him, holding him close as he walks through this valley of sorrow. We pray that You would heal the wounds of those final words spoken in haste, and replace the regret with the peace of knowing that You hold all things in Your hands. "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." (Matthew 5:4) We ask that You would bring healing to his heart and mind, restoring his sleep, his appetite, and his joy in You.

Lord, we also bring before You the love he feels for this woman he has never met. We ask that You would reveal to him the true nature of this love—whether it is a godly love that seeks her best or an emotional attachment that is not rooted in Your will. If this relationship is not aligned with Your purposes, we pray that You would give him the strength to let go and trust You with his future. Help him to guard his heart and to seek relationships that honor You.

Father, we rebuke the lies of the enemy that tell him he is unworthy, that he will always be alone, or that he is not someone’s first choice. We declare that his worth is found in You alone, and that You have a plan for his life that includes hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). We pray that You would heal the wounds of past rejections and losses, and that You would restore his hope in Your goodness. Surround him with godly community—people who will walk alongside him, pray for him, and remind him of Your love.

Lord, we ask that You would draw him closer to You during this time. Let him find his identity in Christ, and let his heart be filled with the peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). We pray that he would experience Your presence in a tangible way, knowing that You are with him always, even to the end of the age (Matthew 28:20).

Finally, Father, we ask that You would watch over those he has loved—those who have passed away, those who have walked away, and those who remain in his life. We pray that You would bless them, protect them, and draw them closer to You. May Your will be done in all things, and may Your name be glorified in every circumstance.

We ask all of this in the mighty and precious name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.

 

[Brother James]

Dear Heavenly Father I come to you in the name of Jesus, lord on Wednesday is a year since my mum passed away and I regret the last words I said to her which was I can't look after you, those words haunt me knowing that I can't take them back that I can't say I'm sorry, that I can't tell her how much I love her, I wish she was here right now so I could hug her one last time, everyday I put on a brave face and laugh with those that know what's happened but right now I'm struggling, I can hardly sleep, I don't want to eat or drink, lord I'm also in love with someone I've never met and I've told her how much I love her but because I feel broken and numb I can't even bring myself to message her to tell her how low I'm feeling right now, I want to be with her but at the same time lord I want her to be happy no matter what that means, I want someone who will treat her with all the love she deserved from me, I want her to meet someone who will see her always as I do, I know I love her lord because I have to let her go, as much as it pains me I need to, but I know now lord that even though she has said I'm worthy of her love I know that I'm not the right person for her and I shall never be someone's person or someone's first choice, I know lord that I shall grow old alone with no family of my own, and this is something I am starting to come to terms with, but any woman that I have loved lord has either rejected me or has left my life by either death or walking away, so I know I shall be alone, I wish all those that I have loved lord all the best in there's lives and ask that you watch over them and keep them and there families safe lord in the name of our lord and saviour Jesus Christ I pray Amen

Praying for you and your request in Jesus. Our thoughts for our lives can really mess us up especially when Jesus is always loving and forgiving us as well as giving us His Righteousness.

Have we ever really meditated on Matthew 6 where Jesus instructs us to take no thought for our lives? I have looked at this in terms of the rest of the Bible where I have learned to claim His Promises in Jesus and take on His thoughts for my life. Thank You Lord Jesus for Blessing me to learn to stop thinking about my life, learn to take on Your thoughts for my life and so much more for Your Glory and my good in Jesus! Amen! Thank You Jesus! Glory to You Lord Jesus!!!

Do you Believe Jesus died for our sins, is Risen from the dead, is Preparing a place for us and is about to call us to join Him?

Are you watching for Jesus in the Clouds of Glory? Jesus is about to call us to join Him!

We can do everything Jesus did and more! We can speak; sickness leave in Jesus! Be healed by Jesus stripes! I am healed by Jesus stripes! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

You can copy and paste this to pray every day and share...

There is nothing that happens for us that is bad except our thoughts about what is happening to us. The Bible says All things work together for our good in Jesus! Look at everything as good!

Sing through out your days Thank You Jesus, Praise You Jesus, Glory to You Lord Jesus or anything that is on your heart to sing to Jesus! It doesn't matter how we sound, Angels will join in with us and Jesus will join in with us as well as fight for us, knock down walls for us, open locks for us, save people for us, evil will flee from us, He heals us and He will over flow His Holy Peace in us.

Praying for others on here and reading your Bible will help you tremendously.

I wanted to commit suicide once, I even came up with a plan. Right before I headed out the door I posted a prayer on here and hoping there might be help from God one last time I opened the Bible and only read take no thought for your life from Matthew 6. I read that before at least 100 times but never really could understand how. This time I took it to heart, all right God I will end my life by not thinking about it. I take no thought, I take no thought, I take no thought over and over and over again I take no thought was my only thought that day. All of a sudden I noticed something, Jesus showed up, all my pains were gone, no neck ache, no back pain, no leg pain from many many accidents I had over the years and no pain in my heart as my wife had left me. I started singing praises and thanks to Jesus and my life has never been the same. My wife returned. It is our obedience to God from His Holy Instructions that makes a difference to His Power of His Promises in our lives.

Be a doer of Jesus friend, it really makes a difference! Thank You Lord Jesus! All things work together for my good in Jesus!

Search the Bible for Jesus' Promises friend, do them and claim them in Jesus! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus! Glory to You Lord Jesus!!!

Powerful healing promise hidden in Proverbs 3:7-8, I am not wise in my own eyes, I fear You Lord, I depart from evil, especially my own evil thoughts and my flesh is healed and my body is refreshed in Jesus.

Praying for others especially in your situation will help you tremendously in yours friend.

Take no thought for your life dear friend and Jesus will take thought for you. Sing praises and thanks to Jesus and He will overflow His Holy Spirit in you and so much more. He will fight for you and give you the desires of your heart.

Pray this prayer look up the verses and pray it again with your friends and family and let's mount up with wings as eagles and soar. Soar with me.

Let Us Pray: God I ask in Jesus' name, bless me to grow closer to You. I long for a more intimate relationship with You. God I take You at Your Word, if I will draw closer to You, You will draw closer to me (James 4:8). Show me how to draw closer to You. Bless me daily to cast off and forsake my thoughts and ways for my life, and exchange them for Your thoughts and ways for my life. Let me think Your thoughts and dream Your dreams for my life. God bless me to live and walk in Your love, mercy and forgiveness (Isaiah 55:7). I confess, I will take no thought for my life. I will trust You Father God to take thought for me and take care of me (Mathew 6:25-34). I will not be wise in my own eyes, I will fear You Lord and depart from evil and my flesh will be healed and my body will be refreshed (Proverbs 3:7-8) daily. Thank You Jesus for Your Promises! Lord make me the Child of God You need me to be in Christ for all those around me and for the world to see (Psalms 128:3). Not by my might, nor by my power, but by Your Spirt Christ Jesus (Zechariah 4:6) this shall happen. And it will happen, it is happening now in Your timing, Power, Strength, Might, and Spirit, Christ Jesus. God all that I have asked of you in this prayer please do the same for all those I love, care about, and every faithful prayer warrior on this site. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You Lord Jesus, my Savior and Lord for answering this prayer with a Yes and Amen.

Bless us to sing praises and thanks to You Lord Jesus so You can fill us with the wine of the Spirit in Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

Dear friend,

We're here with you, holding your hand through this tough time. It's been a year since your beloved passed, and the weight of those last words still hangs heavy. We understand the regret, the longing to take them back, to say "I'm sorry" and "I love you" one more time. But remember, our God is a God of second chances, not because we deserve them, but because He loves us so deeply.

You're feeling numb, struggling to sleep, to eat. It's like you're stuck in a fog, unable to move forward. We get it. Grief does that. It's a natural response to loss, but it's also exhausting. We encourage you to reach out to those around you, to let them in, to help carry this burden. You don't have to go through this alone.

Now, about this woman you've never met but love so deeply. It's beautiful to care for someone so selflessly, to want their happiness above your own. But we must ask, is this love born out of loneliness or a genuine desire to see her thrive? The Bible warns us about emotional attachments that aren't grounded in truth or godly purpose. Let's ask the Lord to reveal the true nature of this love to you.

You feel unworthy, like you'll never be someone's first choice, like you're destined to be alone. We hear you, and we don't want you to dismiss these feelings, but we also don't want you to believe the lie that you're destined to be alone. Your worth is found in Christ alone. God has a plan for your life, and it's not one of isolation. He calls you His beloved child, and in Him, you are never alone.

Let's pray together:

Dear Heavenly Father, we come to You today with a heavy heart. We lift up our dear friend who is grieving the loss of his loved one, who is struggling with regret and the weight of those last words. Lord, we ask that You would comfort him with Your presence. Let him feel Your arms around him, holding him close as he walks through this valley of sorrow. Heal the wounds of those final words, Lord. Replace the regret with the peace of knowing that You hold all things in Your hands.

Lord, we also bring before You the love he feels for this woman he has never met. We ask that You would reveal to him the true nature of this love - whether it's a godly love that seeks her best or an emotional attachment that's not rooted in Your will. If this relationship isn't aligned with Your purposes, give him the strength to let go and trust You with his future.

Father, we rebuke the lies of the enemy that tell him he's unworthy, that he'll always be alone, or that he's not someone's first choice. We declare that his worth is found in You alone, and that You have a plan for his life that includes hope and a future.

Lord, we ask that You would draw him closer to You during this time. Let him find his identity in Christ, and let his heart be filled with the peace that surpasses all understanding. We pray that he would experience Your presence in a tangible way, knowing that You are with him always, even to the end of the age.

Finally, Father, we ask that You would watch over those he has loved - those who have passed away, those who have walked away, and those who remain in his life. Bless them, protect them, and draw them closer to You. May Your will be done in all things, and may Your name be glorified in every circumstance.

We ask all of this in the mighty and precious name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.

 

[Dan T]

Praying in Jesus Name.

 

[BlessedChristian female]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name.

 

[EnricoLange]

Praying for this in Jesus Name.