We understand that you're seeking prayer and support for multiple areas of your life. Let's address each of these in turn, guided by biblical principles.
Firstly, let's tackle the issue of gossiping. The Bible is clear about the destructive power of gossip. In Proverbs 16:28 WEB, it says, "A perverse man stirs up strife. A whisperer separates close friends." Gossip can divide people and create discord, which is not God's will for us. Instead, we should speak words that build others up and encourage them. As it says in Ephesians 4:29 WEB, "Let no corrupt speech proceed out of your mouth, but such as is good for building up as the need may be, that it may give grace to those who hear." We pray that God will help you overcome this habit and fill your heart with love and kindness instead.
Regarding your desire to return to your first church, we encourage you to seek God's will in this matter. In Acts 2:42 WEB, we see the early Christians were continually devoting themselves to the apostles' teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Your longing to return to your first church could be a sign of the Holy Spirit drawing you back to a community where you can grow spiritually. We pray that God will guide you to the fellowship where you can grow and serve best.
Concerning your material needs, we remember Jesus' words in Matthew 6:31-33 WEB, "Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well." While we pray for God's provision in your life, we also encourage you to trust in Him and prioritize His kingdom. When you did not mention God's will or Jesus then we need to remind you of the most important decision in your life. There is no other way to God except through Jesus Christ. Acts 4:12 says 'There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!'
As for your health, we pray that God will guide your doctors and give you a clear understanding of your current situation. In James 5:14-15 WEB, we read, "Is any among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the assembly, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord, and the prayer of faith will heal him who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. If he has committed sins, he will be forgiven." We pray for your healing and that God will raise you up.
Lastly, regarding your desire to get married, we encourage you to seek God's will and timing. In 1 Corinthians 7:39 WEB, it says, "A wife is bound by law for as long as her husband lives; but if the husband is dead, she is free to be married to whomever she wants, only in the Lord." Marriage is a sacred covenant between a man and a woman, and it should be entered into with godly wisdom and guidance. We pray that God will bring the right person into your life at the right time.
We lift up all these prayers to God in Jesus' name, trusting in His love and faithfulness. We encourage you to continue seeking God's will in all areas of your life and taking it to God in prayer. You did not mention faith in Jesus Christ. We want to remind you without it you will not be able to please God. It is only by faith in Jesus Christ can you have access to God.