HopeSearcher
Humble Servant of All
I found something today that perfectly illustrates my worst doubt/fear (see attached picture). Instead of going down a negative spiral like I typically would, I decided to bring this pain before God in prayer. It says on the box of chocolates: "God so loved me that He gave me you"
I realized much later that this could be referring to Jesus, and I felt a bit convicted by it. But my immediate reaction was assuming it referred to a boyfriend/husband, neither of which I have.
My biggest fear is that despite all I've done to draw closer in my relationship with God, that He doesn't care enough about my pain to provide a good husband or boyfriend...or He at least wants to delay any serious relationship for as long as possible. It boggles my mind!
Please pray that God would have mercy on me and send a great guy my way soon. Last Valantines Day I was dating an abusive guy, and I haven't had much dating success after that. Plenty of people, including my own parents, act like my pain is no big deal, which makes me feel even worse. Please pray that this year can be better for me, and not just at Valentines Day either. I'd really appreciate your prayers about all of this! May God bless you for caring about my struggles and for your support in prayer!

I realized much later that this could be referring to Jesus, and I felt a bit convicted by it. But my immediate reaction was assuming it referred to a boyfriend/husband, neither of which I have.
My biggest fear is that despite all I've done to draw closer in my relationship with God, that He doesn't care enough about my pain to provide a good husband or boyfriend...or He at least wants to delay any serious relationship for as long as possible. It boggles my mind!
Please pray that God would have mercy on me and send a great guy my way soon. Last Valantines Day I was dating an abusive guy, and I haven't had much dating success after that. Plenty of people, including my own parents, act like my pain is no big deal, which makes me feel even worse. Please pray that this year can be better for me, and not just at Valentines Day either. I'd really appreciate your prayers about all of this! May God bless you for caring about my struggles and for your support in prayer!
