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natanael
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Dear brothers and sisters in Christ,
I would like to ask if you could pray for my relationship with my husband. Currently, I'm 28 weeks pregnant, but we have not lived together for almost 2 months. The fact that both of us love God doesn't change his heart at all.
We have been married for just 14 months. A very young age of marriage, but we have so much problems and bitterness already.
Both of us are a very strong headed person and with my past problem with men, he confinced me before we get married that I will not experienced any of the bad things that had ever happened to me.
Unfortunately, it never happened. I stay loyal next to him because I feel that we're one already and I also still far from perfect no matter what we're husband and wife already.
In my early pregnancy, he didn't seems really ready for it, in further time, he started to say the word of "go away" or "go back to your parents house" or let's get separate if we argue over something.
I felt so lonely and sad at that time, and I can feel that he's so bitter towards me. There are many things that he keeps inside of him. So many times, I can see his eyes, as if he can kill me any time.
I feel so sad and I can't do anything, except ask GOD again and again to strengthen me.
I told him, I felt like depressed because I felt so lonely, especially he acted as if I'm not exist.
The condition was getting worse until my parents decided to take me back to their house. I lost weight and I can't focus on myself anymore, when my dad found out he was so angry at him and shouted at him that he treated me like an animal and maid.
I have no strength anymore to stop him, as I feel so badly hurt deep inside my heart. He even told my father to take me home, that he doesn't want me anymore and he doesn't care.
If he's not a person who dare to say that he loves God, maybe I will understand those attitudes, however, I barely can understand why he acts so bitter even in the early time of our marriage.
Now, he never contacted me at all. My son inside of me is growing bigger and bigger. I really don't know what to expect.
It's hard for me to see and understand that a man who said love God can treated his wife hand unborn child so badly and said hurtful things to us.
I know I only can hope in the Lord, because I know that He is The healer, The provider, The strength, The love. I also admit that I feel so hurt and used by him.
Please help me to pray that God will heal and touch my heart, so there won't be any further bitterness inside of me. I feel like, if I could hate him and kill him. I don't mind, I've become bitter myself as well.
I want to be set free from this bitterness, and I hope that God still able to do a miracle for my litle family. I don't want to see my child fatherless, but on the same time I don't want him to continue hurting his family.
Please help me to pray, that both of us can be healed and changed. So, that our heart not focus on our selfishness or bitterness but hope that we can confess our sin and be set free from all of these that bind us or keeping us away from God.
I don't want to hurt my own son, and I still believe that what God has united cannot be separated by human. Honestly, half of me feels like leaving him, while the other half still trying so hard to obey and have a great family.
I want to do what God wants me to do, to obey HIM as my God and saviour, as my lover of my soul, as someone Who has gave His life for me. I want to be a good mother who can help my son to love God with all of his heart as well.
Please pray for us. Thank you so much and God bless you.
I would like to ask if you could pray for my relationship with my husband. Currently, I'm 28 weeks pregnant, but we have not lived together for almost 2 months. The fact that both of us love God doesn't change his heart at all.
We have been married for just 14 months. A very young age of marriage, but we have so much problems and bitterness already.
Both of us are a very strong headed person and with my past problem with men, he confinced me before we get married that I will not experienced any of the bad things that had ever happened to me.
Unfortunately, it never happened. I stay loyal next to him because I feel that we're one already and I also still far from perfect no matter what we're husband and wife already.
In my early pregnancy, he didn't seems really ready for it, in further time, he started to say the word of "go away" or "go back to your parents house" or let's get separate if we argue over something.
I felt so lonely and sad at that time, and I can feel that he's so bitter towards me. There are many things that he keeps inside of him. So many times, I can see his eyes, as if he can kill me any time.
I feel so sad and I can't do anything, except ask GOD again and again to strengthen me.
I told him, I felt like depressed because I felt so lonely, especially he acted as if I'm not exist.
The condition was getting worse until my parents decided to take me back to their house. I lost weight and I can't focus on myself anymore, when my dad found out he was so angry at him and shouted at him that he treated me like an animal and maid.
I have no strength anymore to stop him, as I feel so badly hurt deep inside my heart. He even told my father to take me home, that he doesn't want me anymore and he doesn't care.
If he's not a person who dare to say that he loves God, maybe I will understand those attitudes, however, I barely can understand why he acts so bitter even in the early time of our marriage.
Now, he never contacted me at all. My son inside of me is growing bigger and bigger. I really don't know what to expect.
It's hard for me to see and understand that a man who said love God can treated his wife hand unborn child so badly and said hurtful things to us.
I know I only can hope in the Lord, because I know that He is The healer, The provider, The strength, The love. I also admit that I feel so hurt and used by him.
Please help me to pray that God will heal and touch my heart, so there won't be any further bitterness inside of me. I feel like, if I could hate him and kill him. I don't mind, I've become bitter myself as well.
I want to be set free from this bitterness, and I hope that God still able to do a miracle for my litle family. I don't want to see my child fatherless, but on the same time I don't want him to continue hurting his family.
Please help me to pray, that both of us can be healed and changed. So, that our heart not focus on our selfishness or bitterness but hope that we can confess our sin and be set free from all of these that bind us or keeping us away from God.
I don't want to hurt my own son, and I still believe that what God has united cannot be separated by human. Honestly, half of me feels like leaving him, while the other half still trying so hard to obey and have a great family.
I want to do what God wants me to do, to obey HIM as my God and saviour, as my lover of my soul, as someone Who has gave His life for me. I want to be a good mother who can help my son to love God with all of his heart as well.
Please pray for us. Thank you so much and God bless you.
