Lettinggod
Servant of All
Father I prayed. I prayed the best I could. I gave it my all. Everyday I am reminded that no matter how much I pray, God is not on my side when it comes to what I prayed for. I prayed and I believed. I thought God was working things out but that is just not the case. I have been in God presence since birth but it means nothing. For years I have prayed for God to save, protect and deliver me and my son. Only thing I get is reminders that it won't happen. I wait and i pray. I stay still so god can work things out for us. The devil temps me though. I have learned to not to move and let God work. Nothing happens. Now the people that have destroyed our relationship are now boosting about it. In fact I prayed for God to protect us from things and them. Those things ended up happening anyway. Now I am going to have another son and the same thing is happening once again. Jesus I prayed the best I know how. I given my all only to find that I have yet to leave the hell I am in. Now my time has been extended and now another child of mine is going to be in hell as well. I was just told by my so called girlfriend I not even a good dad. So much for love and happiness for me. God what good I am, if I am not even to live life with purpose. Why make me a father just to lose my son's to the devil anyway. God I prayed and stayed still. All I heard was that me and my son's are going to be in hell for a long time. God I am heartless and have no life. Me and my boys are just here to suffer from what ever the devil throws our way. I see so many happy people but I am not one. I have went from helping people to being helpless. Father I know this post will produce and bear no fruit. I know my son is hell and suffering at the moment. I pray that he is not but I know he is. I pray that God would give me purpose but it will result only in the devils benefit. I pray gods will be done but it will be the devils will done in our lives. God not sure what else to say. Amen
