Dear Miryder
Its encouraging to know that you have a heart to serve your King and Master of your life. And you certainly do love Him with all of your heart, which make you want all the more to cooperate totally with His word and commandments.
To be very honest with you, I do love Him too as much as you do, but there are some of His commandments that I find it hard to follow. Thats when His grace comes in to help me in my time of weakness, temptations and even in my deep despair and frustration. Yes, only His grace can help me to die to self and obey His precious commandments, if I have truly decided in my heart for Him to be as my Lord and King not for a day or for good times but for always.
And I sincerely pray for His grace in regards to your heart's desire of remarrying.
This subject on remarriage, is a very delicate matter of the heart and the Lord foreknew already that there will always be an issue on this subject taken at any circumstances. And yes, He has a reason for all these 'dos' and the 'donts' as they are there not to harm us but to protect us. Indeed, maturity welcomes a warning for warning is a good thing and not for bad.
11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. -Jeremiah 29
Once you have established this Jeremiah truth in your heart, I now pray that you will be able to receive these other hilight truths from His word too.
1 Corinthians 7
11. But should she separate, let her stay unmarried, or let her be reconciled to the husband. And, A husband is not to leave a wife.
39. A wife is bound for as long as her husband lives; but if the husband is dead, she is free to be married to whom she wants; only in the Lord.
But why?? Reason is found in Mark 10:11-12:
11 So He said to them, “Whoever divorces his wife and marries another commits adultery against her. 12 And if a woman divorces her husband and marries another, she commits adultery.â€
It applies to either party. I believe it is better to stay single or reconciled back with your ex-husband provided that he is not remarried with other woman....(again, it applies to either party)
2 when she has departed from his house, and goes and becomes another man’s wife, 3 if the latter husband detests her and writes her a certificate of divorce, puts it in her hand, and sends her out of his house, or if the latter husband dies who took her as his wife, 4 then her former husband who divorced her must not take her back to be his wife after she has been defiled;
The best thing is to stay single and be enraptured with His love for He is your All and you true Joy. ANd that is where your defining moments are when you choose Him over your own happiness and security-that's the narrow road where many will try to sacrifice their own desires and dreams.
However, please be assured that He will never leave nor forsake you as He has promise His word to those who love Him truly.
24 Now to Him who is able to keep you, Miryder, from stumbling,
And to present you faultless
Before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy,
25 To God our Savior,[g]
Who alone is wise,[h]
Be glory and majesty,
Dominion and power,
Both now and forever.
Amen. -Jude
In Jesus' Name, amen indeed.