Dear lord,
Every morning I wake up with an anxiety because I have the full day before me and virtually nothing to do.
I get depressed, stressed and feel v low. Anyone coming over is a blessing. I had a good non paid NGO job when ###, my dog, was in ### with my daughter in ### but she wanted to euthanise him because he is old and suffers from arthritis. So I moved hell and earth and got him back.
But then because he was kept in virtually solitary confinement and beaten for ### days he suffers from abandonment anxiety and does not let me go anywhere. He has always been with me except for those few days with my daughter.
God I need to occupy my time with something to do. I need to not be looking outside for external co.
I would love to open a business if you can guide me, just something to feel wanted and loved. I had made a friend here ### ago because things were looking down for her. Things have changed for the better now for her and she too I guess wants to see someone like me less.
Jesus you made me. If there is nothing in this life for me and my dog call us back. But God please please help me. I cannot go on like this. It kills me.
Please help me oh lord. Please, please don’t leave me in the lurch. Please be with me, guide me, hold my hand, you are my loving father, there is no one without you. I start becoming catatonic.
I am sure you are fed up of my repeated same prayers, so do help me oh dear lord. Please be there for me and for everyone who needs you.
Amen
