Anonymous
Beloved of All
God I do have to be honest with you, I don't believe that you still want me to be your child. If I am wrong I really need you to tell me personally by the power of your Holy Spirit. I know I have heard your voice in the past and I know when it's you, it's been when I haven't been looking. I have been in hell for 2 years 3 months now, not your fault. I know I am possessed by a spirit or multiple spirits I don't even know, I can't honestly say that any of my thoughts are pleasing to you. Seems like I have gotten to the point beyond repentance but only you know if that is actually true. I live in fear every day of what is to come, it's already bad but actual hell I fear greatly. I fear you like I am scared of you, I sense that my mind is cursed because of Deuteronomy 28:28 everything points to that as the truth of the matter right now. I know people are praying for me, but at the same time I guess I am hoping that my ears and heart would be opened to you again. I depend on this site to get people to pray for me because I know that you don't hear the prayers of those in darkness. People's opinions of that don't really matter, all that matters is your sovereign will. Please respond to your people praying for mercy for me.