mkn
Disciple of Prayer
God commands we love him with all our heart in the ten commandments. I want to, but I am having a problem loving him. He seems a mean spirited grudge holding God to me who enjoys causig his children pain. I pray God shows me his love so that I might obey that commandment. Right now, I'm having a problem liking God. I've lived 50 yrs under a curse of stagnation. I'm 50, no job, no wife, no home, and I just put my only friend, my cat to sleep. I have mustard size faith, but it's so small. And my love is even smaller. After my cat, I have no human friends. No hope. No joy. I hate existence. It's been so sad. Please lift this curse and replace the years the locust have eaten. And God, show me your goodness. Let me love you again, as per your will, in Jesus name. Would it be so wrong to allow me a little bit of happiness? Is being happy a sin? You said you wanted to give your children the desires of their heart, right? I don't want anything evil or ungodly, just good.
