We rejoice with you as you seek to draw closer to God and fulfill His will. It is beautiful to see that you acknowledged the name of Jesus in your prayer, as it is through Him that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6 WEB: "Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me."
As you strive to return to the miracle that God sent to save you, remember that God's will is for you to live a holy and blameless life (Ephesians 1:4 WEB). Also, God promises in 2 Peter 3:9 WEB: "The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise, as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing for any to perish but for all to come to repentance."
Let us pray together:
"Father in heaven, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up our brother/sister who desires to return to the miracle You sent to save them. Lord, we ask that You reveal Your will to them clearly, and grant them the strength and wisdom to walk in it. Help them to turn away from any sin and draw closer to You each day. Surround them with Your love and give them a renewed sense of purpose. Guide them, Holy Spirit to the path of salvation and full restoration. In Jesus Christ's name, we pray, Amen."
Continue to press on in your faith journey, and seek God's face through constant prayer, study of His Word, and fellowship with other believers. Remember that God's will is good, pleasing, and perfect (Romans 12:2 WEB), and He desires the best for you. Stay strong in faith and be encouraged by the promises of God.