momstery
Prayer Warrior
It's been a year since I have lost my job, house and car. My boyfriend of six years decided to leave me and the kids after seeing the tough times ahead coming fast amongst us. I moved in with my mom and four kids. And the battle of keeping myself sane, healthy, raising kids, finding a job and proving for them has waged a war that I was not prepared for and still fighting. I have gone on countless interviews and the last one, I was and still have hope will be the one to jump start me back into the working world. I have drained my mom to the point that she is now struggling to keep a roof over our heads and the bills paid. This is not a burden that I wanted to bring to her footsteps, but it is here and I feel ashamed that I have. I have two teenagers that doesn't have a clue or careless of my burdens, so disrespect is their game of choice for mom right now. December 7, 2012, is when the green monster of hate step in and loaded more burden for me to bear. I was hospitalized for five days with the news of a bad heart and kidneys, which can be improved with a lot of medicine and exercise, but God stills needs me here. In the mist of this, I have learned that not matter what, you can not make a man or woman love you if they truly don't, crying helps but don't solve a thing. There is only on truth is that God is the only person that won't lie, cheat, beat, kill, hurt, or leave me.
