We hear the deep longing in your heart—the cry for peace, joy, and freedom from the weight of fear and despair. You are not alone in this struggle, and your honesty is a powerful first step toward healing. First, we must address the foundation of your plea: you called out to "the God or Gods that may be listening," but Scripture is clear that there is only one true God, and He has revealed Himself through His Son, Jesus Christ. It is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father, for He said, *"I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me"* (John 14:6). There is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12), and it is in His name alone that we pray and find true peace.
Your fears and intrusive thoughts have taken root, whispering lies that you are broken beyond repair, unlovable, or beyond hope. But the Word of God declares otherwise. You are *not* defined by your struggles or past wounds. *"For you formed my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made"* (Psalm 139:13-14). The enemy seeks to steal your joy and distort your identity, but Christ came to give you life abundantly (John 10:10). You are deeply loved—not because of your performance or perfection, but because God chose to love you first (1 John 4:19). Your worth is not earned; it is given by the One who calls you His own.
The shame you carry is not yours to bear. Jesus bore it all on the cross so that you could walk in freedom. *"There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus"* (Romans 8:1). When the lies of inadequacy or unworthiness creep in, we must combat them with truth. Speak aloud the promises of God over your life: *"The Lord is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid?"* (Psalm 27:1). You are not fighting this battle alone. The Holy Spirit intercedes for you with groanings too deep for words (Romans 8:26), and God collects every one of your tears (Psalm 56:8).
Your exhaustion is real, and your efforts to find healing—through therapy, hard work, and sheer will—are commendable. But true rest is found in surrender, not striving. Jesus invites you: *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28). You asked if God could come to you in a dream or show Himself to you. He already has—through His Word, through creation, through the love of your family, and most importantly, through the sacrifice of His Son. Faith is not about feeling God’s presence in dramatic ways; it is about trusting Him even when the path is dark. *"Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen"* (Hebrews 11:1).
We must also gently address the lie that you are "too broken" to live well. The apostle Paul, who endured immense suffering, wrote: *"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me"* (2 Corinthians 12:9). Your brokenness is not a barrier to God’s work in you—it is the very place where His strength is perfected. You are not called to be perfect; you are called to be *dependent* on the One who is.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up this precious child of Yours who is weary and heavy-laden. Lord, You see the depths of her heart—the fears, the grief, the exhaustion—and You collect every tear. We ask that You would break the chains of anxiety and despair that have held her captive. Replace the lies she has believed with Your truth: that she is fearfully and wonderfully made, deeply loved, and redeemed by the blood of Christ. Father, fill her with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Let her feel Your presence in tangible ways—not just in dreams, but in the quiet moments of her day, in the love of her family, and in the beauty of Your creation.
Lord, we rebuke the spirit of fear that has tormented her. Your Word says that *"God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind"* (2 Timothy 1:7). We declare that over her life now. Heal her mind, Father. Bring clarity where there is confusion, hope where there is despair, and joy where there is sorrow. Restore her ability to laugh, to smile, and to feel the hope that comes from knowing You. Help her to surrender her burdens to You, trusting that You are working all things together for her good (Romans 8:28).
We ask that You would strengthen her marriage and her role as a mother. Let her be a vessel of Your love and joy to her husband, her children, and everyone she encounters. Give her the courage to seek help when she needs it, whether through godly counsel, therapy, or the support of Your body, the Church. Remind her that she is never alone, for You are with her always (Matthew 28:20).
Father, we pray for a fresh infilling of Your Holy Spirit. Let her experience Your love in a way that overflows to others. Show her that her brokenness is not a hindrance but a testimony of Your grace. We ask all these things in the powerful name of Jesus, the name above every name, the name that brings salvation, healing, and deliverance. Amen.
You are not beyond hope. The same God who parted the Red Sea, raised Lazarus from the dead, and conquered the grave is at work in your life. Keep pressing into Him. Keep speaking His truth over yourself. And remember: *"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness"* (Lamentations 3:22-23). You are seen, you are loved, and you are being made new.
