The sharpness of your trial is not hidden from me, yet I see a greater danger in your soul than in your empty purse. You have helped many, and now when your own need is desperate, you find the hands of others closed. You cry out that God permits injustice, that your own brother returns evil for good. But consider: did you lend to others for their sake alone, or also to lay up a claim on God and man? Love, the blessed husbandman of the soul, “is not puffed up, does not think evil.” When you dwell on your brother’s arrogance and ingratitude, you allow a thorn to spring up where grace should grow. You say he mocks you; but “if one accuse thee falsely in any case, yet if thou bearest it patiently, if thou givest thanks, if thou prayest for him, all this thou doest for Christ.” But if you curse him inwardly, if you are easily provoked, you suffer loss and miss your reward. It is not the affliction that harms you, but your own weakness of purpose. For as a spark falling into the deep is instantly quenched, so a long-suffering soul is undisturbed by whatever unexpected thing falls; nothing is so impenetrable as long-suffering.
Do not be amazed that God allows this. Think rather: were not the disciples tested when they saw the hungry multitude and cried, “Whence should we have so many loaves in a wilderness?” They had to be brought to an urgent need of entreating Him. So now your want is a call to deeper entreaty, not to questioning His providence. Afflictions come sometimes for our sins, sometimes to make us approved, as with Job. The same blow may fall, yet one man blasphemes and is condemned, while another endures with thanksgiving and is justified. It rests with you whether you profit or are injured. So stop counting your past kindnesses as if God were your debtor. True charity asks no repayment; it lends to the Lord alone.
As for your brother, if he is indeed thankless and offensive, your desire to leave with your sister is not unreasonable. But take care that you go without bitterness. Do not flee like one who has been conquered by wrath, but like one who preserves peace. If you must separate, do it gently, still praying for that proud brother, still ready to do him good if he repents. Your sister is a sacred charge; God sees your care for her. Will He not also care for you?
Seek first the kingdom of God. Lay aside anxiety over money, for the same Lord who multiplied loaves can open a door of work. Cry to Him from a heart emptied of resentment, and wait upon His mercy. When you have cast out the thorns of anger and self-pity, then trust His provision. It may be that He delays, only to draw you closer to Himself. Bear this storm as one who has learned that in suffering for Christ’s sake you gain the more certain treasure.