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Randy
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I ask for all prayers.
I lost a good paying regular full time job around Christmas 2008. Since, then I have only been able to secure "work from home" independent contractor work on straight commission pay structure. I have moved 3 x to different states in search of promising work. I have a family that I am failing. I work most of the days and nights 7 days a week. Still I am in huge debt. I have been baptized, I attend church every Sunday. I talk to the lord everyday many times and before I try to sleep at night. I strive to be the best human being that I can be 24/7. I am mentally and physically exhausted, drained and losing all hope but I keep plugging away. "The lord helps those whom help their selves" I take this seriously and strive so hard. I have never had luck, Both my parents are deceased (passed on young). I can barely keep the roof over my head and the utilities on even though I have significantly downsized my rental house. Do not even own a car......my wife's has 111K Miles and the air conditioner is broken here in AZ in the Summer. Bills do not stop . I literally shake before I open the mail box because, I know that it will be a aggressive notice from Uncle Sam on back taxes owed or a utility dc notice, that I cannot pay. I cannot laugh, smile or breathe. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop and for things to get even worse as they always do. I just want to pay my bills and re-pay my debts, to give to others, strangers, missionary causes, a stranger on the street, others in need.
I ask for your prayers.
Thank you everyone and may GOD Bless you .
I lost a good paying regular full time job around Christmas 2008. Since, then I have only been able to secure "work from home" independent contractor work on straight commission pay structure. I have moved 3 x to different states in search of promising work. I have a family that I am failing. I work most of the days and nights 7 days a week. Still I am in huge debt. I have been baptized, I attend church every Sunday. I talk to the lord everyday many times and before I try to sleep at night. I strive to be the best human being that I can be 24/7. I am mentally and physically exhausted, drained and losing all hope but I keep plugging away. "The lord helps those whom help their selves" I take this seriously and strive so hard. I have never had luck, Both my parents are deceased (passed on young). I can barely keep the roof over my head and the utilities on even though I have significantly downsized my rental house. Do not even own a car......my wife's has 111K Miles and the air conditioner is broken here in AZ in the Summer. Bills do not stop . I literally shake before I open the mail box because, I know that it will be a aggressive notice from Uncle Sam on back taxes owed or a utility dc notice, that I cannot pay. I cannot laugh, smile or breathe. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop and for things to get even worse as they always do. I just want to pay my bills and re-pay my debts, to give to others, strangers, missionary causes, a stranger on the street, others in need.
I ask for your prayers.
Thank you everyone and may GOD Bless you .
