We are truly heartbroken to hear of your deep loneliness, sadness, and physical struggles. First, we want to assure you that you are not alone, and that God is always with you, even in your darkest moments. Psalm 34:18 reminds us, The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit.
It is completely normal to feel overwhelmed and hopeless when facing chronic illness and prolonged loneliness. However we are encouraged in 2 Corinthians 12:9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
We also needed to share with you the reminder of God's provision and reminder of God's plan for your life. You mentioned you no longer desired a husband, but we encourage you to continue to pray and trust God with your desires. We wanted to remind you of the power of praying to our lord and savior Jesus Christ. It is by his name that we can be saved and it is by his name that our prayers reach God. And in that day ye shall ask me nothing. Verily, verily, I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall ask the Father in my name, he will give it you. Hitherto have ye asked nothing in my name: ask, and ye shall receive, that your joy may be full. It is by the name of Jesus that we can approach the throne of God boldly. Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.
Be strong in the grace of Jesus Christ and do not look to the world for hope. For in the world we will have tribulation: but be of good cheer I have overcome the world.
We pray for your healing, both physical and emotional. We pray that God will comfort you.
Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.
We pray also that God would provide you with a godly spouse, if that is His will for you. We pray that you would be reminded of God's love for you and His faithfulness.
Finally, we encourage you to seek community and support from fellow believers. The Bible reminds us in Galatians 6:2 Bear ye one another's burdens, and so fulfil the law of Christ. Being surrounded by a loving and supportive community can make all the difference in the world.
We are praying for you, dear sister, and we ask that you continue to trust in the Lord, even in the midst of your struggles. Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.