Anthonette
Humble Servant of All
this is also on my blog
This weekend I have learned a great many things.
First we have to remember that we are but Dust. God knows this and a lot of time we put a lot of pressure on ourselves because we feel guilt or fear. Fear that we are not as strong in our faith as we should be, fear that God is not listening because he has not sent us a sign, fear that we are not worthy, fear that even though we are praying we will not get our hearts desires, fear that maybe this is not the fight God wants for us.
Some of these fears are self-induced and some from the devil. In fact all of them are from the devil, because God has not given us a Spirit of Fear. But God can use that fear to his good. When we have fear we draw closer to God. We have to remember the scriptures. And speak them and draw on them. We have to remember where they are coming from. It is Satan trying to tell us it isn’t going to happen. It isn’t going to work out how we want it to be.
But God has given us a Spirit of Love, Power and A Sound Mind. The sound mind is the first one that Satan attacks. He gets into our mind and talks in the first person and makes you think that these are your thoughts. But God has given us a sound mind. This is hard for me but I need to call on the Lord and the Holy Spirit to give me comfort.
I also started listing some of my fears. When I wrote them down I looked at them and realized how silly they really were. God has already told me he has it covered and he has already filled me with the Spirit. One of my other fears was that I would let everyone on the page would be disappointed in me. I felt, like how can people be saying these nice things about me and how strong I am when I am so scared. I didn’t feel worthy. That again was Satan. I am a child of God and what I say is moved by him and through him. Everything I do goes through him that is in me. Sometimes I mess up and go against it, but I try my best to do what is right and do what is right.
Yesterday I was depressed, but my faith hadn’t diminished. I have finally come to the realization that I am just dust. That doesn’t mean I have a right to sin over and over and rely on grace, but it does allow me to miss my husband and that in missing him I am not saying to God you are not doing enough. It just means that there are things I miss doing with him and it hurts and that is not a sin. But Satan has been in my mind telling me that it means that my faith is weak and that I am not relying on God. No it means I know God is doing something wonderful but right now at this minute I miss talking to my husband. And even through my tears I told God I know you have this covered and I know you are working. I know that everything is going to work out. Just right now there are some memories of the time we had and it hurts a bit. God blessed me.
I heard from my husband and it was nice. I didn’t see him but we were on line for a few hours spending time and doing things we had done before when he used to stay in another country. This was better than what I had planned because it was us doing something familiar that we used to do. Amen thank you God. Sometimes what we want may not be what God has planned but he has it covered and it will turn out for our good. We could have gone somewhere and spent time together but this to me was better because we spent more time together doing something that was missing for the last few years in our marriage. Just playing games and spending time together. God is real good. And this was the main reason I wanted him to add me to his account. I used to be afraid that he doesn’t think about me when he is home alone. God put that fear to rest.
It doesn’t mean that these thoughts won’t come again or that I won’t miss him again. But now not only do I have the Word to comfort me I, I now have a new memory. And the more I am faithful and not anxious with what he has given me the more he will show me. To whom much is given much is expected and I have to recall Matthew 5:21 “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’
God has everything covered from all of fears and insecure. He will keep us safe and he will hold us tight. Just because we get upset or lonely, that doesn’t mean we are losing faith. We just are made of dust. And we are human with human emotions. And we can have emotions, but sin not. That is all God has asked of us.
AMEN AND GOD BLESS
This weekend I have learned a great many things.
First we have to remember that we are but Dust. God knows this and a lot of time we put a lot of pressure on ourselves because we feel guilt or fear. Fear that we are not as strong in our faith as we should be, fear that God is not listening because he has not sent us a sign, fear that we are not worthy, fear that even though we are praying we will not get our hearts desires, fear that maybe this is not the fight God wants for us.
Some of these fears are self-induced and some from the devil. In fact all of them are from the devil, because God has not given us a Spirit of Fear. But God can use that fear to his good. When we have fear we draw closer to God. We have to remember the scriptures. And speak them and draw on them. We have to remember where they are coming from. It is Satan trying to tell us it isn’t going to happen. It isn’t going to work out how we want it to be.
But God has given us a Spirit of Love, Power and A Sound Mind. The sound mind is the first one that Satan attacks. He gets into our mind and talks in the first person and makes you think that these are your thoughts. But God has given us a sound mind. This is hard for me but I need to call on the Lord and the Holy Spirit to give me comfort.
I also started listing some of my fears. When I wrote them down I looked at them and realized how silly they really were. God has already told me he has it covered and he has already filled me with the Spirit. One of my other fears was that I would let everyone on the page would be disappointed in me. I felt, like how can people be saying these nice things about me and how strong I am when I am so scared. I didn’t feel worthy. That again was Satan. I am a child of God and what I say is moved by him and through him. Everything I do goes through him that is in me. Sometimes I mess up and go against it, but I try my best to do what is right and do what is right.
Yesterday I was depressed, but my faith hadn’t diminished. I have finally come to the realization that I am just dust. That doesn’t mean I have a right to sin over and over and rely on grace, but it does allow me to miss my husband and that in missing him I am not saying to God you are not doing enough. It just means that there are things I miss doing with him and it hurts and that is not a sin. But Satan has been in my mind telling me that it means that my faith is weak and that I am not relying on God. No it means I know God is doing something wonderful but right now at this minute I miss talking to my husband. And even through my tears I told God I know you have this covered and I know you are working. I know that everything is going to work out. Just right now there are some memories of the time we had and it hurts a bit. God blessed me.
I heard from my husband and it was nice. I didn’t see him but we were on line for a few hours spending time and doing things we had done before when he used to stay in another country. This was better than what I had planned because it was us doing something familiar that we used to do. Amen thank you God. Sometimes what we want may not be what God has planned but he has it covered and it will turn out for our good. We could have gone somewhere and spent time together but this to me was better because we spent more time together doing something that was missing for the last few years in our marriage. Just playing games and spending time together. God is real good. And this was the main reason I wanted him to add me to his account. I used to be afraid that he doesn’t think about me when he is home alone. God put that fear to rest.
It doesn’t mean that these thoughts won’t come again or that I won’t miss him again. But now not only do I have the Word to comfort me I, I now have a new memory. And the more I am faithful and not anxious with what he has given me the more he will show me. To whom much is given much is expected and I have to recall Matthew 5:21 “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’
God has everything covered from all of fears and insecure. He will keep us safe and he will hold us tight. Just because we get upset or lonely, that doesn’t mean we are losing faith. We just are made of dust. And we are human with human emotions. And we can have emotions, but sin not. That is all God has asked of us.
AMEN AND GOD BLESS
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