I have been praying day and night, I even got the strength to seek wisdom. It's when I met an atheist and it shook me everything I believe about God, I'm still praying every now and then but there is some sort of heavy queries in my heart. I feel like I need a sign from God to be more...
Like I have been praying as if it will work if it had worked it will have worked for a long time not now. Where I hardened my heart and rejected God because that is what Jesus will.