Barbara Barbett
Prayer Partner
It has been a while since I have spoken to you and believe me when I say I am thankful.
But things have not changed much and the pain has turned into bitterness, anger, hard heart, and things I never wanted to happen. I know the Bible tells us there is no one good, no not one, and I wholeheartedly believe that.
The very last thing that I think has just finally told me to just give up was my daughter that is the one that lives here in Florida and that has hurt me the most. I allowed her to move in with me and she was to pay me $### a week. I went and got her a car in my name on my credit and she was to make payments because my financial situation has not changed since I seen you well she decided not to make car payment and the car went back which just shot my credit. Then every year God has a way of showing me a family that could use help during the holidays and this time he showed me a community. Long story short, she got up one morning finding me to wrap presents for the kids that angered her asking why I was spending my time doing this. We went to North Carolina to see my other daughter while we also took her some stuff that she could use and my son-in-law who is married but separated from the daughter that lives with me had gone to help with furniture while there decided he wanted to scream in my face 3 different times in front of all 5 of my grandbabies. What should have been a good time turned ugly so I told my daughter that I didn’t want to be put in that predicament anymore seeing this wasn’t the first time this has happened so I didn’t want him back at my house. And then my daughter told me not during this event but during the event of Christmas wrapping she would no longer pay me rent that if I wanted her out I could evict her. I explain that I can’t afford for her to live here free she didn’t care. The two grandbabies after the trip to North Carolina decided to become very disrespectful to me also at Christmas she decided that my grandsons would not be opening the gifts I had gotten them so hard for me to have my 5-year-old grandson ask if he could open his gifts and his mom say no. This happened for three days.
But I feel like if I don’t allow my daughter to treat me like less of a person then I am she will not allow me to see my grandsons and the pain of all of this is just more than I can bear so to get past this which really hasn’t helped I have become bitter. I have gotten a I don’t care attitude but in all reality I do care. I have prayed about it and feel as though God is leaving me to my own.
I just don’t know how to do this anymore. I am tired.
But things have not changed much and the pain has turned into bitterness, anger, hard heart, and things I never wanted to happen. I know the Bible tells us there is no one good, no not one, and I wholeheartedly believe that.
The very last thing that I think has just finally told me to just give up was my daughter that is the one that lives here in Florida and that has hurt me the most. I allowed her to move in with me and she was to pay me $### a week. I went and got her a car in my name on my credit and she was to make payments because my financial situation has not changed since I seen you well she decided not to make car payment and the car went back which just shot my credit. Then every year God has a way of showing me a family that could use help during the holidays and this time he showed me a community. Long story short, she got up one morning finding me to wrap presents for the kids that angered her asking why I was spending my time doing this. We went to North Carolina to see my other daughter while we also took her some stuff that she could use and my son-in-law who is married but separated from the daughter that lives with me had gone to help with furniture while there decided he wanted to scream in my face 3 different times in front of all 5 of my grandbabies. What should have been a good time turned ugly so I told my daughter that I didn’t want to be put in that predicament anymore seeing this wasn’t the first time this has happened so I didn’t want him back at my house. And then my daughter told me not during this event but during the event of Christmas wrapping she would no longer pay me rent that if I wanted her out I could evict her. I explain that I can’t afford for her to live here free she didn’t care. The two grandbabies after the trip to North Carolina decided to become very disrespectful to me also at Christmas she decided that my grandsons would not be opening the gifts I had gotten them so hard for me to have my 5-year-old grandson ask if he could open his gifts and his mom say no. This happened for three days.
But I feel like if I don’t allow my daughter to treat me like less of a person then I am she will not allow me to see my grandsons and the pain of all of this is just more than I can bear so to get past this which really hasn’t helped I have become bitter. I have gotten a I don’t care attitude but in all reality I do care. I have prayed about it and feel as though God is leaving me to my own.
I just don’t know how to do this anymore. I am tired.
