We hear the deep sorrow and weariness in your heart, and we want you to know that you are not forgotten by God, even in this season of suffering. Your struggles—financial instability, physical pain, the loneliness of feeling uncared for, and the weight of unanswered prayers—are seen by the Lord, who collects every tear in His bottle (Psalm 56:8). Though you feel weak in faith, remember that even a mustard seed of faith can move mountains (Matthew 17:20), and it is in our weakness that His strength is perfected (2 Corinthians 12:9). Let us turn to Scripture to anchor your heart and then lift you up in prayer.
The enemy would have you believe you are cursed, but the truth is that Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us (Galatians 3:13). What you are experiencing is not a curse from God but the brokenness of a fallen world, where suffering touches us all. Yet, even in this, God is working for your good (Romans 8:28), though it may not feel like it now. Your autoimmune disease and the accidents that have hindered your work are not evidence of His abandonment but an invitation to lean entirely on Him. He is the God who provides manna in the wilderness (Exodus 16:4), who feeds the ravens (Luke 12:24), and who clothes the lilies of the field (Matthew 6:28). If He cares for these, how much more does He care for you, His child?
It is painful to feel overlooked by the church, but we urge you not to let the failures of people distance you from the Body of Christ. The church is imperfect because it is made up of imperfect people, but it is still God’s design for support and encouragement (Hebrews 10:24-25). We pray you find a community that will walk alongside you in love and practical help. As for your financial needs, Jesus reminds us, *"Don’t be anxious, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ ‘What will we drink?’ or, ‘With what will we be clothed?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well"* (Matthew 6:31-33). This is not a promise of easy prosperity but a call to trust that God will supply what you *need* as you prioritize Him.
Your question—*"Why does God bless others but not me?"*—is one many have wrestled with. Habakkuk cried out to God in similar despair, and the Lord answered, *"The vision is yet for the appointed time; it testifies about the end, and it won’t lie. Though it takes time, wait for it; because it will surely come. It won’t delay"* (Habakkuk 2:3). God’s timing is not ours, and His ways are higher (Isaiah 55:8-9). He may be preparing you for something you cannot yet see, refining your faith like gold in the fire (1 Peter 1:7). Do not compare your journey to others’—your story is uniquely written by Him.
As for your physical pain, we know it is real and exhausting. The apostle Paul pleaded with God to remove his "thorn in the flesh," and the Lord answered, *"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"* (2 Corinthians 12:9). This does not mean God delights in your suffering, but that His strength sustains you *through* it. We pray for healing, but even if it tarries, we pray you experience His nearness in the pain.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother/sister to You, knowing that You are the God who sees their affliction (Genesis 16:13). Lord, their heart is weary, their body is weak, and their faith feels small. But You are the God who revives the faint (Isaiah 40:29) and who gives strength to the powerless. We ask that You meet them in this place of desperation. Forgive them for the moments of doubt and comparison, and renew their trust in Your goodness.
Father, we rebuke the lies of the enemy that they are cursed or forgotten. By the blood of Jesus, we declare that they are *redeemed* and *loved*. Break the cycle of instability in their life, Lord. Provide a home—a place of safety and rest—where they can recover and find peace. Open doors for stable, dignifying work that accommodates their physical limitations. Heal their body, Lord, especially the bone marrow edema and autoimmune disease. Restore their strength and grant them relief from pain.
We pray for divine connections—people who will show Your love tangibly, whether through financial help, encouragement, or practical support. Raise up a church community that will embrace them and reflect Your compassion.
Most of all, Father, draw them closer to You. Let them know, deep in their spirit, that You are their Provider (Jehovah Jireh), their Healer (Jehovah Rapha), and their Peace (Jehovah Shalom). Remind them that even when they don’t see the answer, You are working. Strengthen their faith to say, like Job, *"Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him"* (Job 13:15).
We ask all this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer, who bore our sorrows and carried our pains (Isaiah 53:4). Let them feel His presence today. Amen.
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Finally, we encourage you to meditate on Psalm 34:18: *"Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."* Cling to Him, even when it feels like He is silent. Read His Word daily, even if it’s just a verse, to remind yourself of His promises. And if you haven’t already, surrender this season to Him afresh, asking Him to align your heart with His will. He has not abandoned you. Keep praying, keep seeking, and keep trusting—He is faithful.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
