Lubi, have you gotten into the bible, in the epistles and let God speak to you there? In Ephesians it says that you have been chosen, called, and accepted in the Beloved. In Romans 5 it says that the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Spirit. It says in Romans 12:2 to not let the world tell you who you are, but let God tell you, be transformed by the renewing of your mind. God says He will never leave or forsake us. It is not God moving away from us, but us moving away from God.
Father, in the name of Jesus, I command this spirit of deception and lies to be muzzled! Stand down, cease and desist NOW! Your mouth is bound from speaking condemnation, guilt and shame over Lubi's life. I break every lie and wrong agreement he has entered into with concerning not knowing who he is or if God even cares about it. BEGONE! I bind distraction and confusion, and I speak the peace of God over Lubi's life in Jesus' name. Know that you are loved beyond anything you can imagine, and God is right there, inside you. He comes to live inside us, and our body is His temple. Believe God over what your feelings are telling you. Repent, change the way your think, and go in the other direction. I don't have to feel God's presence, I know He loves me because He says He does. I'm going to believe him over any feeling that would try to tell me otherwise. Let God be true and every man a liar that every mouth may be stopped.