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Father I am saddened and scared. I'm heart broken. Lord you know my hearts desires and how much I long to have a good godly girl in my life. Lord for so long I felt like I was cursed from that like I was supposed to be alone. Now I know I am. I'm not supposed to have anyone in my life not even a friend. I'm so so heart broken now. More then I was before. Lord last night I had a dream I had a dream I was at church on stage getting ready to sing as always do. Then something happened ever brought someone to each boy to marry. A girl for each boy. But not for me. People kept looking at me and was smiling because they was happy but no one had anyone for me. I was left alone friendless and unloved like always. And hurt. Everyone left and got married besides me. Then I woke up. Lord is what you reviled to me that I'm not supposed to have someone or have so much as a friend ? Please lord I don't want this to be true I don't want to be alone forever. Why must I be alone and hurt? I was so happy just knowing things was going to get better now I know I was happy for nothing just to get thrown back down again. I am supposed to be alone aren't I lord ? You want me to be. What ever your will is I'm willing to follow. I'll stay alone because that's your plan. In Jesus name amen.
