We hear the deep pain in your words, and our hearts ache for the suffering you are enduring. Doubt is not a sin—it is an opportunity for God to meet you in your honesty and draw you closer to Him. Even some of the greatest figures in Scripture wrestled with doubt and despair. Job cried out in anguish, questioning why he was suffering, yet God did not abandon him. The psalmist David often poured out his heart in lament, asking, *"How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever?"* (Psalm 13:1, WEB). Even John the Baptist, while imprisoned, sent messengers to Jesus to ask, *"Are you the one who is to come, or should we look for another?"* (Matthew 11:3, WEB). Jesus did not rebuke John for his doubt—instead, He pointed him back to the truth of who He is.
Your pain is real, and your questions are valid. But we must gently remind you that feelings, no matter how overwhelming, are not the measure of truth. God’s Word stands firm even when our emotions falter. The enemy of your soul would love for you to believe that God has abandoned you, but Scripture declares otherwise: *"Be strong and courageous. Don’t be afraid or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go"* (Joshua 1:9, WEB). Jesus Himself promised, *"I will never leave you or forsake you"* (Hebrews 13:5, WEB). Even in the darkest valley, He is there—carrying you, even when you cannot sense His presence.
You mentioned that God’s Word does not "ring true" for you right now. We understand how difficult it is to hold onto truth when suffering clouds your vision. But truth is not dependent on our feelings or circumstances. Jesus said, *"Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will not pass away"* (Matthew 24:35, WEB). His promises are eternal, even when we struggle to see them fulfilled in our lives. Consider the story of the father who brought his demon-possessed son to Jesus. The man cried out, *"I believe! Help my unbelief!"* (Mark 9:24, WEB). Jesus honored that raw, honest prayer—and He will honor yours too.
We also want to address something critical: you said, *"I can’t believe any more."* Belief is not something we muster up in our own strength—it is a gift from God. If your faith feels destroyed, ask Him to rebuild it. Cry out to Him like the psalmist: *"Restore to me the joy of your salvation. Uphold me with a willing spirit"* (Psalm 51:12, WEB). Even if you feel nothing, choose to turn toward Him in surrender. He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18).
One thing we notice is that your words do not mention the name of Jesus. There is no other name by which we can approach the Father, and there is no other name by which we are saved. *"There is no other name under heaven that has been given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). If you have not surrendered your life to Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, we urge you to do so now. He is the only way to the Father (John 14:6), and it is through His sacrifice on the cross that we have access to God’s love and mercy. If you have already trusted in Him, then cling to His name now—speak it aloud in your despair. Call upon Him, for *"everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved"* (Romans 10:13, WEB).
Lastly, we want to remind you that God does not promise a life free from suffering, but He does promise to walk with you through it. The bad things that happen in this broken world are not a sign of His abandonment but a result of sin’s curse on creation. Yet even in suffering, God is working for your good (Romans 8:28). Joseph, after years of betrayal and imprisonment, could say to his brothers, *"You meant evil against me, but God meant it for good"* (Genesis 50:20, WEB). We do not know why God allows certain trials, but we know He is sovereign, and His love for you is deeper than you can imagine.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we lift up this precious soul to You, knowing that You see every tear and hear every cry of their heart. Lord, they are in a season of deep doubt and pain, feeling abandoned and unable to believe. But Your Word says that even when our hearts condemn us, You are greater than our hearts (1 John 3:20). We ask that You meet them in this place of brokenness. Open their eyes to see Your presence, even if just a glimpse. Remind them that Your love is not based on their circumstances but on Your unchanging character.
Father, we rebuke the lies of the enemy that would tell them You have forsaken them. Your Word says You will never leave nor forsake Your children. We pray that You would restore their faith, even if it starts as a mustard seed. Help their unbelief, Lord. Fill them with Your Spirit, who testifies to our spirits that we are Your children (Romans 8:16). Let them feel Your nearness in a tangible way.
We also pray that if they have not fully surrendered to Jesus Christ, that today would be the day they place their trust in Him alone for salvation. May they call upon His name and be saved. And if they have already trusted in Him, may they cling to Him now more than ever.
Lord, surround them with Your peace that surpasses understanding. Bring godly people into their life who can speak truth and love over them. Heal their wounded heart and renew their mind with Your Word. We ask for a breakthrough in their spirit—a divine encounter that leaves no room for doubt that You are real, You are good, and You love them fiercely.
In the mighty and holy name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to read Psalm 13, Psalm 42, and Lamentations 3. These passages show that even in the depths of despair, we can bring our honest cries to God—and He meets us there. Also, spend time in the Gospels, reading about Jesus’ compassion for the broken. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever (Hebrews 13:8).
You are not alone in this. Keep seeking Him, even in the darkness. He is there.