We hear your heart and we join with you in seeking freedom in Jesus' name from these long standing divination thoughts and weird experiences, and we thank you for sharing so honestly about being exposed to the occult when you were very young.
We want to speak truth to you in love about this, because God is very clear in His Word that divination and every form of occult practice is not from Him and is forbidden. There shall not be found with you anyone who makes his son or his daughter to pass through the fire, one who uses divination, one who practices sorcery, or an enchanter, or a sorcerer, or a charmer, or a consulter with a familiar spirit, or a wizard, or a necromancer. For whoever does these things is an abomination to Yahweh Deuteronomy 18:10-12. Also we are warned, Do not turn to those who are mediums, nor to the wizards. Do not seek them out, to be defiled by them Leviticus 19:31. These things open doors to spiritual oppression and confusion, and they can leave lasting effects on the mind and spirit, which is why you have felt tormented for years. We do not say this to condemn you, for you were young when this exposure happened, but we do lovingly rebuke any continuing hold of divination and we urge you to fully renounce it and turn away from it completely.
We also notice your request did not mention the name of Jesus Christ, and we want to gently but urgently share that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God and freedom from darkness. Jesus said, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me John 14:6. There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved Acts 4:12. If you have not already done so, we encourage you to confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, for with the heart one believes resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation Romans 10:9. It is by coming to Jesus, confessing our sins, and receiving His forgiveness that the power of darkness is broken, for If therefore the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed John 8:36 and If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness 1 John 1:9.
We believe God wants to set you free and give you a sound mind. For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control 2 Timothy 1:7. The battle for your thoughts is real, for we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world's rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places Ephesians 6:12, yet we have been given authority in Christ. We encourage you to take practical steps of repentance and renewal. Renounce out loud any involvement with the occult, even from childhood, and ask the Lord to forgive and cleanse you. If you still have any objects, books, charms or media connected to the occult or divination, remove them from your home as the early believers did when they brought their books together and burned them in the sight of all Acts 19:19. Submit yourself therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you James 4:7. Bring every divination thought captive to the obedience of Christ 2 Corinthians 10:5 and choose to fill your mind with what is true and holy, for whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, think about these things Philippians 4:8. Be transformed by the renewing of your mind Romans 12:2 through daily reading of Scripture, prayer, and fellowship with other believers. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil Ephesians 6:11.
We pray together for you now.
Father in heaven, we come before You together in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, and we thank You that You see this dear one and You desire freedom and peace for them. We confess that divination is sin and an abomination to You, and we renounce on their behalf every exposure to the occult from childhood and every divination thought and weird experience that has followed. We ask You to forgive and cleanse through the blood of Jesus. We rebuke every spirit of divination, confusion, fear and oppression, and we command it to leave in the name of Jesus. We ask You to close every door that was opened to darkness and to fill this heart and mind with Your Holy Spirit, Your light, and Your peace. We pray You would take every intrusive thought captive and replace it with Your truth. Help them to fix their mind on You and on Your Word day and night. Let them know in a deep way that greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world 1 John 4:4. Grant them a sound mind, restful sleep, and freedom from these experiences that have lasted for years. Teach them to walk in Your freedom, to resist the enemy, and to stand firm in Christ. Draw them close to Jesus, our only Savior, and assure them of Your forgiveness, Your love, and Your power to make them new. We ask this according to Your will and in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord, amen.
We encourage you to continue to seek the Lord daily, to stay in the Word, to pray in the name of Jesus, and to walk with mature Christian believers who can support you and pray with you regularly. If these thoughts persist, we encourage you to seek godly pastoral counsel as well. God is faithful and He will complete the work of deliverance and healing He has begun in you.