What a mind blowing last few days. And not in a good way.
between 2 seperate legal matters my fiance is facing and then catching him in an extremely compromising situation two days later, I'm..... defeated. I have nothin else left but to fall to my knees and turn my eyes to God.
He has prepared me for this. I have called out to Him and doubted him so many times before this and every single time He has prevailed. The only differnce this time should be that I've been through it enough to not worry. Be still. Not lean on my own understands but in all ways acknowledge Him. Know that He alone is God. Seek Him first. Trust that his will is perfect and all things will work together no matter how awful they seem at the time. He has me and will not allow me to break because I am His.
Regarding that compromising situation.... isn't it funny how we can so easily (or at least I can) forgive those that we love. But when it's someone we don't like that wrongs us, we hold on to that. I feel like I should be much much much more angry and upset. But I know who my fiance is. One thing he is: Prideful. Seriously, he is the definition of prideful. This situation utterly humiliated him. And in a way I feel like that was good for him. He needed to be humbled. And he needed to feel the grace of forgiveness. I truly feel there was a reason and a huge lesson (beyond the obvious) behind the whole thing. And we agreed to put it past us, and I am so thankful for that.
I just need to keep my eyes on Him, and remember that no matter what happens-- If I lose it all just like Job did-- God's will is perfect, and only He knows what is best for me.
I clearly don't, because I don't remember consulting him to be in this relationship in the first place. Althought he has used me in many ways, that I know for sure. But if this is only temporary, then who am I to shake my puny fist at God?
between 2 seperate legal matters my fiance is facing and then catching him in an extremely compromising situation two days later, I'm..... defeated. I have nothin else left but to fall to my knees and turn my eyes to God.
He has prepared me for this. I have called out to Him and doubted him so many times before this and every single time He has prevailed. The only differnce this time should be that I've been through it enough to not worry. Be still. Not lean on my own understands but in all ways acknowledge Him. Know that He alone is God. Seek Him first. Trust that his will is perfect and all things will work together no matter how awful they seem at the time. He has me and will not allow me to break because I am His.
Regarding that compromising situation.... isn't it funny how we can so easily (or at least I can) forgive those that we love. But when it's someone we don't like that wrongs us, we hold on to that. I feel like I should be much much much more angry and upset. But I know who my fiance is. One thing he is: Prideful. Seriously, he is the definition of prideful. This situation utterly humiliated him. And in a way I feel like that was good for him. He needed to be humbled. And he needed to feel the grace of forgiveness. I truly feel there was a reason and a huge lesson (beyond the obvious) behind the whole thing. And we agreed to put it past us, and I am so thankful for that.
I just need to keep my eyes on Him, and remember that no matter what happens-- If I lose it all just like Job did-- God's will is perfect, and only He knows what is best for me.
I clearly don't, because I don't remember consulting him to be in this relationship in the first place. Althought he has used me in many ways, that I know for sure. But if this is only temporary, then who am I to shake my puny fist at God?
