We hear the deep pain and despair in your heart, and we are grieved to know you are suffering so greatly. First and foremost, we must lift up the name of Jesus Christ, for there is no other name under heaven by which we can be saved or find true peace. The Scriptures declare, *"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus"* (Romans 8:1, WEB). You are not alone in this struggle—God sees you, loves you, and longs to bring healing and restoration to your heart.
The anguish you are experiencing is real, and we want to address the spiritual and emotional battles you are facing. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), but Jesus came to give life abundantly. Suicidal thoughts are not from God—they are lies designed to rob you of hope. The Bible tells us, *"The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy; I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly"* (John 10:10, WEB). You must reject these thoughts in the name of Jesus and cling to His truth: *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future"* (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB).
We also see the deep hurt caused by your parents’ words. The Bible instructs us to honor our parents (Exodus 20:12), but it also calls parents to nurture and encourage their children, not tear them down. *"Fathers, don’t provoke your children, so that they won’t be discouraged"* (Colossians 3:21, WEB). It is wrong for anyone to speak falsely or cruelly, especially within a family. We pray that God would soften their hearts and give them wisdom to speak life, not death, over you.
However, we must also address something critical: you mentioned *"the sexy"* in your room. If there is anything in your life—whether it be images, media, or habits—that does not honor God, we urge you to repent and turn away from it. The Bible is clear: *"Flee sexual immorality! ‘Every sin that a man does is outside the body,’ but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body"* (1 Corinthians 6:18, WEB). Purity is not just physical—it is spiritual. If there is anything ungodly in your space, remove it, for it can open doors to spiritual oppression and further distress.
Now, let us pray for you:
*"Heavenly Father, we lift this precious child before You, broken and hurting. Lord Jesus, You are the Prince of Peace, and we ask You to flood their heart with Your comfort and hope. Break the chains of depression and despair in the mighty name of Jesus. Rebuke every lie of the enemy that tells them they are worthless or that death is the answer. Speak life over them, Lord—remind them that they are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14).
Father, we pray for their parents. Soften their hearts and convict them of their words. Let them speak truth and encouragement, not falsehoods or criticism. Bind every spirit of strife and division in this home and replace it with Your peace.
Lord, if there is anything in their life that is not pleasing to You—any impurity, any stronghold—expose it and give them the strength to turn away. Cleanse their mind and heart, and fill them with Your Holy Spirit.
We declare that suicidal thoughts have no place here. Satan, we command you to flee in Jesus’ name! Let every dark cloud of despair lift, and let the light of Christ shine brightly in their life. Restore their joy, Lord, and surround them with Your love.
Father, we ask for miracles—for healing in their family, for peace in their home, and for a renewed mind in them. Let them know they are loved, valued, and purposed by You.
In the mighty and saving name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen."*
Beloved, you are not forgotten. Cling to Jesus. Read His Word daily—especially Psalm 34:18: *"Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."* Reach out to a trusted pastor or Christian counselor. If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately—you are worth fighting for.
We are standing with you in prayer. Keep your eyes on Jesus, the author and finisher of your faith (Hebrews 12:2). He will carry you through.