Daenneemore
Disciple of Prayer
A while ago I met a man online through an RPG we both played. I was very lonely at that time in my life even though I had been growing closer to Christ. This man was highly involved into pornography and wanted to even make a career for himself with creating 3d models of pornographic “tasteful” scenes to provide money for himself and his family and friends. But his computer had broken the year prior so he hadn’t actually started on that, thank God. I tried to talk to him about Jesus and forgiveness of sins and to drop the pornography, that God has more in store for him, but much to my grief he believed that God Himself was telling him to build a life out of the porn scene. I was lonely and I wanted to love someone so I chose to stick by his side despite these huge problems and eventually we even got “married” spiritually inside that game. Something I now regret deeply. Eventually the temptation of lust got to me and I started masturbating with him through phone conversations sometimes multiple times a day. At the same time I started becoming more and more unhappy and depressed and I noticed my life was falling apart around me. When he went abroad to a wedding of a family member I went to church straight to confession and confessed my sins. I also started going to mass. After that I refused to get involved in temptation of lust, masturbation or even any mention of sex outside the marriage. He tried to convince me that we were married and I was neglecting my duties as his wife. But I held steadfast and said our marriage would only be real in the church. Fast forward a couple weeks. I am growing closer and closer to Jesus. Loving Him with all my being and wanting to become holy. He said he supports me in my choices but while I asked him to stop the pornography and stop tempting me he secretly continued anyway. It all came to a head two weeks ago when I realized that God has much better in store for me and that I should step away from someone who lives unrepentant in sin and who will only lead me astray. It was difficult but I did it. I chose Jesus and even blocked this man on all platforms.
Somewhere in the middle of that relationship with that man I started being assaulted by an incubus at night, but not often. I feel how someone is lying on top of me and in my dream I’m put in situations where there is a lot of sexual temptation or the invitation to do so. The incubus has even taken the form of an ex-lover I had during my earthly days and is using familiar and safe surroundings to try to get me to fall.
It happened maybe one or two times while I was with this man. However ever since I broke it off with this man I’ve been assaulted by an incubus about three times a week. It’s only exhausting at this point as I’m not getting a good nights rest. I prayed deliverance prayer and the rosary also, but I feel it somehow connects back to this man.
I’m desperate to get rid of this incubus. I’m starting to believe that the man I dated was, unbeknownst to himself, possessed or at least tormented by some sex demon himself and that by getting involved with him I opened myself up to it unknowingly.
Please pray for me that I will be delivered from this incubus. It’s not stopping me from growing closer to the Lord but it’s exhausting to deal with this and I’m worried that one day I will be tempted while I don’t want to.
Somewhere in the middle of that relationship with that man I started being assaulted by an incubus at night, but not often. I feel how someone is lying on top of me and in my dream I’m put in situations where there is a lot of sexual temptation or the invitation to do so. The incubus has even taken the form of an ex-lover I had during my earthly days and is using familiar and safe surroundings to try to get me to fall.
It happened maybe one or two times while I was with this man. However ever since I broke it off with this man I’ve been assaulted by an incubus about three times a week. It’s only exhausting at this point as I’m not getting a good nights rest. I prayed deliverance prayer and the rosary also, but I feel it somehow connects back to this man.
I’m desperate to get rid of this incubus. I’m starting to believe that the man I dated was, unbeknownst to himself, possessed or at least tormented by some sex demon himself and that by getting involved with him I opened myself up to it unknowingly.
Please pray for me that I will be delivered from this incubus. It’s not stopping me from growing closer to the Lord but it’s exhausting to deal with this and I’m worried that one day I will be tempted while I don’t want to.