We have read your request and we are standing with you in prayer, for we know the heaviness and trauma you have carried for so long and we do not take lightly what you have endured. We hear your desperation for deliverance and your desire to hold onto God, and we want to lift you before the throne of grace together in Jesus' name.
First we want to speak truth to you about the power of Jesus Christ over every curse, ritual, and work of darkness. The Word tells us that Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law, having become a curse for us Galatians 3:13 and that having stripped the principalities and the powers, he made a show of them openly, triumphing over them in it Colossians 2:15. There is no blood sacrifice of darkness that can overpower the blood of Jesus which was shed once for all. If you belong to Jesus, no curse can remain where it has been renounced and brought under His lordship, for greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world 1 John 4:4. We also know that our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world's rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places Ephesians 6:12, and the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God to the throwing down of strongholds 2 Corinthians 10:4. This means your battle is spiritual and it is won not by fear or by trying to see or feel the enemy, but by submitting to God and resisting the devil so he will flee from you James 4:7.
We must also lovingly rebuke and correct some things that have left you more vulnerable. You mention believing in God, but you do not mention the name of Jesus Christ, and we want to gently tell you that it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father and deliverance. Jesus said I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me John 14:6 and there is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved Acts 4:12. To be delivered you must be born again by confessing with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believing in your heart that God raised him from the dead Romans 10:9. The blood of Jesus alone cleanses us from all sin 1 John 1:7 and breaks every chain. No psychic, no gifted seer, no occult informant can set you free, and seeking answers from those sources only opens more doors to deception. We must test the spirits, whether they are of God 1 John 4:1, and your partner's experiences, while he may sincerely believe he is seeing truth, must be tested against Scripture. The enemy is a liar and the father of lies John 8:44 and he can appear as an angel of light, so we cannot build our faith on what is seen in the spirit realm apart from the Word of God.
We also must address your living situation as you call this man your partner and say you moved in together. Scripture teaches that marriage is honorable in all, and the bed undefiled, but God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterers Hebrews 13:4 and to flee sexual immorality 1 Corinthians 6:18. Living together outside of marriage as if married is fornication and it is sin that gives the enemy a foothold and brings confusion and division rather than the protection and covenant God intends. If this man is a Christian believer and you are both free to marry, we pray and encourage you to pursue marriage as God designed between a man and a woman for life, or to live separately in purity while you seek the Lord. Courtship should be with the goal of godly marriage to another believer, for what fellowship has righteousness with iniquity or what communion has light with darkness 2 Corinthians 6:14. We also encourage you not to look to being as one through a mystical or sexual bond to break a curse, but to become one in Christ first and, if it is God's will, in holy marriage. Any teaching that you must be together sexually or mystically to break this is not from God and must be rejected.
We are deeply grieved to hear that you spent weeks in a mental hospital and wanted to take your own life. Your life is precious to God. He is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit Psalm 34:18 and He has plans for you, plans for peace and not for evil, to give you hope and a future Jeremiah 29:11. Suicide is not the answer and we urge you to continue to get help from trusted medical and mental health professionals as well as from a Bible believing pastor and church family who can walk with you in person. What you describe with trances, missing time, and feeling controlled and violated needs both spiritual ministry and compassionate professional care, and you should not walk through this alone. If you ever feel unsafe or want to harm yourself again, please reach out immediately to a pastor, a trusted family member, or a crisis helpline in your area and allow others to stay with you.
We want to pray for you now for true deliverance, clarity, and healing.
Father in heaven, we come before You together in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, and we thank You that You see this dear one whom You love and for whom Jesus died. We confess that Jesus is Lord and we ask You to forgive every sin, every open door, every involvement willing or unwilling with darkness, and to wash this dear one in the blood of Jesus. We renounce every curse, every satanic ritual, every blood sacrifice, every word spoken, every chain and every program of mind control and multiplicity, and we declare that it is broken and nullified by the cross. We command in Jesus' name every evil spirit that has been tormenting, astral projecting, attaching, lying, and violating to leave now and to go where Jesus sends and not return. We ask You to close every door that was opened through fear, through fornication, through occult seeking, and to seal it with the Holy Spirit. Lord, restore what has been stolen, heal the mind and body and memory, lift the heaviness and fear, and give soundness of mind for You have not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control 2 Timothy 1:7. Bring this dear one into the light of Your truth, surround this home with Your holy angels, let no weapon that is formed against you prosper Isaiah 54:17, and teach this dear one to put on the whole armor of God daily Ephesians 6:11. If this relationship is to continue, let it be made right before You in purity and truth and marriage if it is Your will, or give courage to step out of what is not Your will. Lead to a faithful church where the Word is preached, where there is wise pastoral counsel and deliverance ministry grounded in Scripture, and provide safe, godly support and continued care for trauma and health. We declare that whom the Son makes free will be free indeed John 8:36 and that nothing will be able to separate us from Your love in Christ Romans 8:38-39. We ask all this in the name above every name, Jesus Christ, amen.
We encourage you to take practical steps before the Lord each day. Repent and surrender fully to Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, be baptized if you have not been, and renounce aloud every occult tie and curse and declare your belonging to Jesus. Fill your home and mind with Scripture, pray aloud in Jesus' name, worship, and stay in fellowship with mature believers who can pray with you in person. Remove any occult objects, materials, or contacts with those practicing witchcraft or divination, and do not seek out those who claim to see chains or curses for money or power, for they will only deepen the deception. Seek a pastor who believes the Bible and understands spiritual warfare to pray for deliverance with you, and continue with counseling and medical support for your trauma. God is able to make you whole, to give you peace that passes understanding Philippians 4:7, and to restore your life one step at a time as you abide in Christ.