Dear Lord

[Heidi]

My husband came home from his business trip early. We did get to speak to each other. I told my husband how much I love him. He knows I love him. He knows I am seeking God during this hard time that we are going through. My husband says he still has feelings for me after 23 yrs of marriage. But he says he knows he has to leave me. Lord, I know he feels so ashamed of his porn addictions and treating me bad at times in our marriage. Taking advantage of me always being there for him. Lord he is weighed down in so much guilt. He can't see any way out, besides running away. Leaving me, my 18 yr old daughter, and 14 yr old son. Lord, I know you work miricles. I'm worried if he gets his own place, it leaves him to much alone time. Time to look into porn, get more involved in that lonely life. Lord I pray that he does not leave and move out to be alone. He has nobody to go to with this problem. I know in due time he will be back to me Lord. I know you are there for me, I see the strength you have given me. I have given this to you Lord. In Jesus Name,, Amen..

 

[Wordlessverbs]

Hedi I don't know weather you have tried this or not , but married and as one fleash in the eyes of the Lord maybe you should try fasting. 1) Ask that God would give him a encounter with him.2) Also that the Lord would present the perfect time for you to talk with him about these other issues. 3) That the Lord would give you wisdom to say the right words and stregth to resist the wrong ones. (Just A thought)

Lord I thank you for Hedi and ask you for her life Lord and for the situation that is at hand you alone lord know her husbands heart and can mold it into your desire. I ask that you would break down his pride and embaressment and allow him to see that his marriage is more important in jesus name I pray Amen!

P.S. I am telling you as a man you can be sure that he most likely is embaressed, but wants to tell you. Also if he does decide to talk to you be prepared to face why he might be doing these things. Such as unsatified sex life, lack of effection, he may even feel that you are not attracted to him the list goes on and on...the important thing is not why he does it , but that you are receptive when he trys to tell you. Even though you may no precive what he is telling you to be acurate this is how he sees things. I am not try to pry believe me I just am telling your from personal experiance sister and do not want you to be offended ok!

God Bless you and I am beleiving that you marriage will be restored Amen!

 

[Heidi]

I have not tried fasting, thank you for bringing that to my attention. I have known about my husbands addiction for 5 yrs or so. I do believe your words. I believe that Brian does feel i'm not attracted to him. Truthfully after knowing about his addiction, I have lost that attraction to him. Till last week. So much has changed this past week. I see God working. I am so open to Brian, I know God has a plan. I know when Brian acknowledges to himself of his addiction. I will be right there full heartly. i know after 23 yrs of marriage taking advantage of one another. This is time to make it right, for us, and for the Lord. To live the life God has made for us. I just pray that the Lord opens Brians eyes. I know its in Gods hands. I just get a little stuburn and try to make things go my way. Brian has nobody to talk to about this, hes a very quiet shy guy. Adding to his embarassment, shamefulness, aloness, and everything else he is feeling. God gave me strength to forgive Brian. What he has done, is no longer in my heart. God has wiped it away. I will see what I need to fast. If anybody knows of any verses in the Bible that can help me with that. Please Please know me know. I am now walking the path the Good Lord wants me to.

Heidi

 

[kjferg86]

Dear God I pray for Brian and Heidi, Please restore their marriage. Bring Brian to a place of total repentance. Thank You God for what You plan on doing in this marriage.