Gloernor
Disciple of Prayer
Dear God, Someone is always trying to ruin my day. And when they do, it is hard for me to “shake it off” or “let it go” and move on because I know the person that yelled at me or gave me trouble is forever angry at me. This is also a carry on ptsd from childhood in which everyone I make an innocent mistake at school, the teacher tells my mother and she yells at me (even throughout college this kept on happening). Recent example was how two years ago, the bank teller told me and my mom about how I spent too many expenses, she yelled at me. Another example was how at a preschool center in which I work at, a coworker told me in five minutes take the students to the bathroom so we can go outside. And I listened but a student was being a crybaby all day kept asking me to do the art project with her. I said no twice because I was cleaning up but she kept insisting. I felt sorry for her because she won’t stop crying about how she misses her mom. I thought I have two minutes left so when I sat down with her, my coworker said, “No, you can’t do story with her. It’s been five minutes and I don’t know why you haven’t started potties yet”, or something like that. Immediately, I started doing potties but I was still seething in the inside because the kid got me in trouble with my coworker. Now my day has been ruined. I’m an adult of course but when mistakes like this happen. I am worried that the coworker is going to complain to my boss and she will use it as an excuse to fire me. That was what happened to me at my three previous workplaces. At one place, I was let go all because of mistakes like and I wasn’t even a worker, I was a volunteer that nobody should not be used as a scapegoat and didn’t get any training. At the second job, I was let go because the boss wouldn’t help me lift adults with disabilities in the bathroom, accused me for having mixed up priorities, and didn’t like that I don’t like to drink alcohol. Just because you are an adult does not mean that I have to drink an alcoholic drink. I just don’t like the taste of it. At my previous third job, nobody had respect for me and I quit because they kept denying me time off when I really wanted to take time off to care for my father and brother in Turkey. So I quit and was told to never work at ### ever again. My current boss is actually the best I ever have. She is forgiving and merciful but I know even she has limits. Not to mention that l almost got fired because some teachers set me up by not telling me right away that I accidentally gave a kid with allergies regular eggs instead of “Just Eggs.” (I never heard of the product before and it was never made clear to me that they meant the product, not regular eggs that don’t have cheese). Another thing that ruined my day was my nightmare. I had a nightmare that I was at a party in which I kept stuffing myself with treats. And my sister made my brother play an acting improv game in which he had to play the role of a homosexual man in a love scene. He felt uncomfortable and my mom was disgusted about it. I woke up because I was horrified by it. I know it was a dream but I fear that my sister would do that to him because she is always doing crummy acting games like thanks to Second City. And neither she or my brother see anything with homosexuality because they had fallen from the faith and are woke. Please help me shake it off that is all I ask, Lord. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.
