Crying

[Hungry4love357]

I'm just two overwhelmed.  I just broke down and started balling my eyes out.  I don't what I'm doing wrong.  Ice been praying for so long for God to give me a wife, and I'm just siting here thinking to myself how, how ridiculous my prayer is.  How I asked for a wife who would do coaplay with me, and play videogames with me, and make her own dresses.  I'm dreaming big I guess.  But at this point, I know the truth is, she probably won't be any of that.  I'm also sitting here thinking if destroying my letters to her, I want to just burn them right now.  I want to give up on ever finding her at all.  It just seems impossible.  It seems impossible that the women I asked for would even exist.  All my fantasized, about the Zelda themed wedding, the playing video games together, all the things I wrote to her about in my letters.  None of it's gonna happen.  It's never gonna come to pass.  Now every time I see a couple, in the movies, on TV, real life anywhere I can't stand it.  I can't stand to look at it.  I'm never gonna have that and I cannot stand it.  What did I do wrong? I'm a virgin, I write letters two her, I have all these ideas in my head of how it's supposed to be and the reality is Its never gonna be that way.  As bad as I wanted it, it's never gonna happen.  And I cannot get it out of my head.  I've been in denial for so long, and now allI want is to forget about everything.  I wish I was Never born!  I wish I were dead!  I'm tempted to go to a mental hospital right now because I need help.  I'm so messed up.  I'm a freak.  I just need to be given some medicine and be locked in a cell.  I can't take it anymore.  I hate my life! I hate being single, I hate that I cannot fix it.  I can't take it.  It's too much.  It's not fair.  It's not fair.  It's not fair.   :bawling: . So much pain.

 

[Lesser by the day]

Praying for you

 

[Hungry4love357]

Praying for you

Thank you

 

[lenore2]

I am sorry that you are hurting so much my friend. I do understand how it feels when prayers go unanswered and God seems silent and how it feels to be lonely. I am praying for you and I am sorry that you are hurting so much.

 

[Anonymous]

Praying; may God heal.

 

[JosephG]

Dear Lord Jesus I come before you and I pray for Hungry4love357 Lord I pray you will help my friend

have peace that only comes from the Holy spirit and I also ask you will give him the strength and patience

to carry on in Jesus' precious name i pray Amen.

 

[Anonymous]

Please Father, bring Your Peace to my heart,

Let me surrender all my worries to You, 

Let me choose unconditional Love, self-esteem, confidence, happiness,

Let me allow You to bless me.

As I learn to delight myself in You, Your Wisdom, Your Peace and Your Love,

I trust that in Your Perfect Will, You will give me the desires of my heart.

 

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