khigh81
Servant of All
Lord I know I keep coming to you with the same thing and maybe you are already telling me or showing me what to do but I am not receiving it. I know all things happen for a reason and there will be a lesson to be learned but God I have no idea what happened to my marriage. We have had some tough times in the past but we were able to move forward together and I thought we were on the right track. I have not always been the best person and I know I have hurt my husband in the past but I pray that he has not closed his heart completely to me. Just months ago he was expressing his love for me everyday and then is abruptly changed. Lord my mind is in overload wondering if my husband is cheating on me. I need you to show me God, PLEASE. It seems like he is trying to see if something will happen with someone else before he leaves me. Maybe my mind is playing tricks on me and the Satan has taken over but my gut tells me something is happening other than what he is telling me. If there is anything please block it God....please stop him from what he is doing. Speak to his heart God. If it truly is that my husband is struggling with feeling like he is less of a man and not a good provider for our family God please help him through negative thoughts and show him that he is an amazing provider. He struggles with work/life balance but he is unaware of this. His career is the most important thing and it was never that way in the past. it was always YOU God, me and our families and then his career. Satan snuck in and took over our lives with career, money issues and all the things that are working against us. My depression is so severe right now wondering what is going on and praying that our marriage is restored. I know that I am not supposed to have a love above you God and believe me I love you with all my heart, but you also sent me a husband that is supposed to love me as much as you love me and I do not feel that. God show me if he is struggling with the fact that I can not have children or maybe its because of my constant sickness. I just need to know. God I also pray for a financial blessing. We have lived above our means in some ways and now we are worried about our future. That is a strain on our marriage as well. God with my blessing I will clean up our debt and start to plan for our future. I promise to not take anything for granted again that you bless me with. I will nurture my marriage and be the best wife I can if you give my husband's heart back to me. I'm trusting you God although some days are harder than others. I'm human and my feelings and emotions often take over but I promise God that I never doubt what you will do because I am a witness that you can do all things above all that we could ask or think. I thank you for everything you have done for me and will do for me and I love you so much!! in Jesus name I pray, Amen!
