We come before the Lord with you, lifting up these deep struggles and confessions, for we know that nothing is hidden from Him, and He alone can bring true deliverance, restoration, and peace. You have called upon the name of Jesus Christ, and that is where your hope lies—for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). It is only through faith in Him that we have access to the Father, and it is in His name that we boldly approach the throne of grace to receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need (Hebrews 4:16). We are grateful you have turned to Him, for He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness when we confess them (1 John 1:9).
First, we must address the heaviness of your words, particularly the despair that has led you to say, *"God, I wish I died in my sleep instead of waking as a pathetic person again."* Beloved, these thoughts do not come from the Lord, for He has plans to give you a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11). Satan is the accuser, the father of lies (John 8:44), and he seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). But Jesus came that you may have life and have it abundantly. Do not let the enemy whisper such darkness into your heart. Instead, cling to the truth of God’s Word: *"Why are you in despair, my soul? Why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God! For I shall still praise him for the saving help of his presence"* (Psalm 42:5). You are not pathetic—you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), redeemed by the blood of the Lamb, and called according to His purpose. Reject these lies in the name of Jesus, and let the truth of His love and power fill you.
You have also mentioned feeling powerless due to a lack of resources—money, work, a car, or even protection. But the Kingdom of God does not operate by the world’s standards of strength. *"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me"* (2 Corinthians 12:9). Your worth and ability to stand firm do not come from what you possess but from who possesses *you*. Jesus is your provider (Philippians 4:19), your shield (Psalm 3:3), and your ever-present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Do not measure your boldness for Christ by worldly means. The apostles had no wealth, no armies, and no earthly security, yet they turned the world upside down by the power of the Holy Spirit (Acts 17:6). Trust in Him, not in chariots or horses (Psalm 20:7). If you are able to work, seek opportunities diligently, but if you are unable, trust that He will sustain you. *"Therefore don’t be anxious, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well"* (Matthew 6:31-33).
We also hear your cry regarding the awkward situation with these individuals and the residual effects of your time at that church. It is clear these experiences have left wounds, and we pray that the Lord would sever every ungodly tie, every lingering pain, and every word spoken against you that was not of Him. *"No weapon that is formed against you will prevail; and you will condemn every tongue that rises against you in judgment. This is the heritage of Yahweh’s servants, and their righteousness is from me," says Yahweh"* (Isaiah 54:17). We declare that every plan of the enemy to use these past interactions to hinder you is broken in Jesus’ name. If there is unforgiveness in your heart toward these people or that church, we urge you to release it, for unforgiveness is a chain that binds *you*, not them. *"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you don’t forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses"* (Matthew 6:14-15). Ask the Lord to heal those memories and replace them with His peace.
Regarding the demonic attacks you’ve associated with the game *League of Legends*, we must speak truth here: games, characters, or any form of entertainment that glorifies darkness, death, or occult themes can open doors to spiritual oppression. *"What agreement does a temple of God have with idols? For you are a temple of the living God. Even as God said, 'I will dwell in them and walk in them. I will be their God and they will be my people.'" (2 Corinthians 6:16).* Beloved, you are a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20), and you must guard your heart and mind against anything that defiles it. If this game—or any other influence—has become a stumbling block or a source of spiritual attack, we strongly urge you to fast from it and seek the Lord’s deliverance. *"Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"* (James 4:7). The "close calls" you’ve experienced are not coincidences; they are warnings. Repent of any involvement with things that honor darkness, and ask the Lord to cleanse you and fill you afresh with His Spirit. *"Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tender hearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you"* (Ephesians 4:31-32).
Finally, you’ve asked for the restoration of your internet. While we pray that the Lord would provide what you need to fulfill your purposes in Him, we also encourage you to examine why this is a priority. Is it for godly connection, work, or ministry? Or is it a distraction or a source of temptation? *"Whether therefore you eat, or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God"* (1 Corinthians 10:31). Seek His will in this, and trust that if it is His desire for you to have it, He will provide.
Now, let us pray together:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother/sister who is burdened by despair, spiritual attacks, and the weight of past wounds. Lord, You see the depths of their heart, and You know the struggles they face. We ask that You would break every chain of depression, hopelessness, and self-condemnation. Replace these lies with Your truth—that they are loved, redeemed, and purposed by You.
Lord, we rebuke every demonic assignment against their mind, body, and spirit. Sever every ungodly soul tie from those past interactions and that church. Let no weapon formed against them prosper. Restore what the enemy has stolen—peace, memory, joy, and provision. If there is any unforgiveness, Lord, soften their heart to release it, that they may walk in freedom.
Father, we pray for deliverance from any spiritual oppression tied to games, entertainment, or influences that do not honor You. Break the power of these things in Jesus’ name. Fill them with a hunger for Your Word and Your presence above all else.
We ask for Your provision in every area of lack—finances, work, transportation, and even the restoration of their internet if it aligns with Your will. Help them to trust in You alone, not in worldly security.
Most of all, Lord, remind them that their life has value and purpose in You. Let them see themselves as You see them—beloved, chosen, and victorious. Strengthen them to walk in holy boldness, not by might nor by power, but by Your Spirit (Zechariah 4:6).
We declare peace over their mind, protection over their life, and progress in their walk with You. Let every close call be a testimony of Your mercy, turning their heart fully to You.
In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.