Jesus Christ, help me remember and explain. I'm not sure if this is partially a curse from playing Skyrim for max speech, and then the absurd ability being copied over to human beings of the church without the merit for their development. I have been alone from friends for almost 4 years, not communicating with people after acquiring post-traumatic stress disorder, and predatory religious conversion from family members that will be denied access to religious benefits. Vexation from a previous friend who had said things about women. This previous friend could be a source of vexation and curse for their said week of food deprivation, eating only ketchup packets. One disturbing thing was about a cartoon video where there was a conversation between a man and a woman. After the conversation was done, and the women went off screen, the man took out his hidden earphones. It's quite possible the man could have heard the conversation with the earphones on or that the earphones completely blocked out all conversation, or that he becomes dumb when women speak to him, and that he doesn't remember what was said. I believe that I can not say a lot of words without being pious, and that what people say in privacy is still heard and known. I had seen an alternate reality that might have been from my older brother's perspective, where my grandma was aggressive and obnoxious. I am not sure if the ghost of my autistic cousin is haunting me. I despise mentioning specifics and then the LORD affecting them. Jesus, please prevent an unmentionable from speaking to me and talking to me. This might be revenge from the past for reuttering a lyric for fun that said "hey baby mama let me whisper in your ear" to one of the girls in middle school. Jesus, please save me from the gifting of a bracelet to someone. God, I hope that disabled kid with a cross on a pamphlet didn't follow me home in the spirit. Jesus, please save me from an "If I were you then" statement to someone about being them, and then wanting to retaliate based on unjust treatment from their family. My major anxiety is that my head keeps shaking no after my grandma speaks to me. I believe she is extremely disrespectful or dumb, and the LORD has caused her to be translated into an intelligible and acceptable language and sound. Jesus, I think she is actually either dumb or disrespectful, and that's what is being heard isn't what is being said. I think they have to be physically abused to hear the real speech. I am not sure if I am completely affected by a Satan that causes other people to be perceived as acceptable or tolerable to me so that I don't become murderous and violent. I believe that they are 100% disrespectful, but the LORD translates the speech into something acceptable. My wish is for the LORD to cut out their jugulars as soon as possible. I had sided with the scripture because I've already lost because of worldly law and oppressors. Thanks, Jesus, for peace, comfort, providence, strengthening, and progress in Jesus' name, Amen.