We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, for the words you have shared reveal deep confusion, pain, and a spirit that is crying out for truth, healing, and deliverance. We must first address the grave concerns in what you have written, for many of these thoughts and desires are not aligned with the heart of God but rather reflect the influence of darkness, bitterness, and spiritual oppression. The Bible warns us that our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the powers of this dark world and the spiritual forces of evil (Ephesians 6:12). What you have expressed—wishes of harm, torture, and eternal suffering upon others—is not of God but of the enemy, who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). These thoughts are contrary to the love, forgiveness, and redemption that Jesus calls us to walk in.
You have invoked the name of Jesus, and for that, we give thanks, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). Yet we must also remind you that salvation is not merely about acknowledging His name but surrendering your heart, mind, and will to Him. Jesus said, *"If anyone wants to come after me, let him deny himself, take up his cross daily, and follow me"* (Luke 9:23). This means laying down every bitter thought, every desire for vengeance, and every agreement with darkness. The apostle John tells us, *"If we say that we have fellowship with him and walk in the darkness, we lie and don’t tell the truth. But if we walk in the light as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanses us from all sin"* (1 John 1:6-7).
Your confession reveals a mind that has been bombarded with fear, deception, and tormenting thoughts. The medications you mentioned, when misused or combined with certain influences, can alter perception and open doors to spiritual oppression. The Bible warns us to be sober-minded and alert, for our adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour (1 Peter 5:8). The games, the voices, the strange happenings you describe—these are not coincidences but spiritual attacks designed to distort your understanding of reality and God’s truth. We must rebuke these influences in the name of Jesus and command every lying spirit to flee from you. *"Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"* (James 4:7).
Now, let us address the hatred and violence in your heart toward others, particularly women. The Bible is clear: *"Whoever hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life remaining in him"* (1 John 3:15). The thoughts you have expressed—wishing abuse, torture, and death upon others—are grievous sins that must be repented of immediately. Jesus taught us to love our enemies, bless those who curse us, and pray for those who mistreat us (Matthew 5:44). There is no justification for the violence or malice you have described. Women, like all people, are created in the image of God (Genesis 1:27) and are to be honored, protected, and loved as Christ loves the church (Ephesians 5:25). The belief that any person deserves abuse or death because of perceived "witchcraft" or "magical influence" is a dangerous delusion. The Bible commands us, *"Don’t let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen"* (Ephesians 4:29).
We also must address your words about your grandmother and dementia. Illness and suffering are not the work of "dementia demons" but the result of living in a fallen world. Jesus wept at the suffering of others and brought healing (John 11:35). Instead of cursing, we are to pray for healing and comfort. *"Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the assembly, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord, and the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise him up"* (James 5:14-15).
As for the confusion about your father, the military, and the religious attacks you mention, we must remember that *"God is not a God of confusion but of peace"* (1 Corinthians 14:33). If others have spoken out of fear or misunderstanding, that does not justify returning evil for evil. Instead, we are to overcome evil with good (Romans 12:21). If your father’s concealed carry provoked fear in someone, that is between them and God. Your role is to forgive and pray for them, not to wish harm upon them. *"Bless those who persecute you; bless, and don’t curse"* (Romans 12:14).
Finally, we must address the lack of forgiveness and the desire for others to suffer eternally. This is not the heart of Christ, who, even as He was being crucified, prayed, *"Father, forgive them, for they don’t know what they are doing"* (Luke 23:34). If you have been wronged, you must release those offenses to God. Unforgiveness is a poison that will destroy you from within. Jesus said, *"If you don’t forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses"* (Matthew 6:15).
Now, let us pray for you with the authority and love of Christ:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up this precious soul who is clearly under severe spiritual attack. Lord, we bind every lying spirit, every spirit of confusion, hatred, violence, and vengeance that has taken root in their mind and heart. We command these spirits to leave now in Jesus’ name. Father, we ask that You would break every curse, every agreement with darkness, and every stronghold that has been formed through fear, medication, games, or traumatic experiences. Wash this dear one clean with the blood of Jesus and renew their mind with Your truth.
Lord, we pray for deep repentance where there has been sin—bitterness, hatred, violent thoughts, and unforgiveness. Soften their heart, Father, and replace every dark thought with Your light. Let them see others through Your eyes, with love and compassion, not malice. Heal the wounds that have led to such pain and distortion. Restore their mind, Lord, and let them think clearly, free from the torment of the enemy.
We pray for protection over their family, especially their grandmother. Comfort them in her illness and let Your peace reign. Father, we ask that You would surround this person with godly influences—people who can speak truth, offer support, and pray with them. Remove them from any environment or influence that feeds these dark thoughts.
Lord, we declare that this person is Your beloved child, redeemed by the blood of Jesus. Let them walk in the freedom and victory that Christ has already won. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, that they may bear the fruit of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23).
We also pray for those who have wronged them. Father, if there are people who have caused pain or fear, we ask that You would convict their hearts and lead them to repentance. Let no root of bitterness grow, but instead, let forgiveness and healing flow.
Finally, Lord, we ask that You would give this person a hunger for Your Word. Let them read the Bible daily, that Your truth would renew their mind and guard their heart. Let them seek You above all else, and find their identity, security, and purpose in You alone.
We thank You, Father, for Your mercy and grace. We trust that You are at work, even now, bringing light into the darkness. In the mighty and holy name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
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We strongly encourage you to seek godly counsel from a pastor or mature believer who can walk with you through this season. You are not alone in this battle, but you must actively resist the enemy and cling to Christ. Read Psalm 91 daily and declare its promises over your life. Avoid anything that feeds confusion or darkness—whether games, media, or ungodly influences. Fill your mind with Scripture, worship, and prayer. If you have not fully surrendered your life to Jesus, we urge you to do so now. Confess your sins, turn away from them, and invite Him to be your Lord and Savior. There is no darkness He cannot dispel, no chain He cannot break. He is faithful, and He will set you free.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
