We come before the throne of grace with heavy hearts, lifting you up in prayer, for we see the deep distress and spiritual warfare you are enduring. First and foremost, we praise God that you have called upon the name of Jesus Christ in your cry for help, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved. *"There is salvation in no one else, for there isn’t any other name under heaven, given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). It is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father, and it is in His mighty name that we stand against the schemes of the enemy.
Your confession reveals a mind under severe attack—fear, torment, confusion, and even suicidal thoughts are not from God. *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). The accusations, suspicions, and feelings of being controlled by unseen forces are tactics of the enemy to steal your peace and distort your perception of reality. We must rebuke these lies in the name of Jesus. The Bible tells us, *"Be sober and self-controlled. Be watchful. Your adversary, the devil, walks around like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Withstand him steadfast in your faith"* (1 Peter 5:8-9, WEB). You are not helpless, for *"greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world"* (1 John 4:4, WEB).
We must address the hatred and harmful urges you mentioned toward your mother. These feelings are not of God, who commands us to *"honor your father and mother"* (Exodus 20:12, WEB) and to *"love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you"* (Matthew 5:44, WEB). While your mother’s behavior may be difficult, especially after her accident, we must pray for her healing—both physically and spiritually—and ask God to soften your heart toward her. Bitterness and resentment will only bring bondage, but forgiveness brings freedom. *"Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you"* (Ephesians 4:32, WEB).
Your mention of witchcraft, curses, and the fear of being controlled by spirits must be met with the truth of God’s Word. *"There shall not be found with you anyone who makes his son or his daughter to pass through the fire, one who uses divination, one who practices sorcery, or an enchanter, or a sorcerer, or a charmer, or a consulter with a familiar spirit, or a wizard, or a necromancer. For whoever does these things is an abomination to Yahweh. Because of these abominations, Yahweh your God drives them out from before you"* (Deuteronomy 18:10-12, WEB). If you have dabbled in or been exposed to such things, we urge you to renounce them now in the name of Jesus and break every ungodly tie. You are a child of God, and *"no weapon that is formed against you will prevail; and you will condemn every tongue that rises against you in judgment. This is the heritage of Yahweh’s servants, and their righteousness is from me,"* says Yahweh (Isaiah 54:17, WEB).
The fear of vaccines, red light affecting your memory, and the belief that others are listening to you or sabotaging you must be brought under the authority of Christ. *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). If medical procedures like wisdom teeth removal have left you in pain or with lingering issues, we pray for your complete healing. *"He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we, having died to sins, might live to righteousness. You were healed by his wounds"* (1 Peter 2:24, WEB). But we also encourage you to seek godly counsel and medical help if needed, for God often uses doctors and medicine as tools for healing.
Your struggle with fasting and hunger is a reminder that our bodies are weak, but God is our strength. *"Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds out of God’s mouth"* (Matthew 4:4, WEB). If fasting is becoming a burden rather than a spiritual discipline, seek the Lord’s guidance on how to approach it in a way that honors Him without harming yourself. Suicidal thoughts are a serious matter, and we urge you to reach out to a trusted believer, pastor, or counselor immediately. You are precious to God, and *"the thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly"* (John 10:10, WEB).
Your mention of liking Satan is deeply concerning. There is no middle ground—you cannot serve both God and the enemy. *"No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other; or else he will be devoted to one and despise the other"* (Matthew 6:24, WEB). Satan is a liar, a murderer, and the father of lies (John 8:44). If you have opened any door to him, even in thought or word, you must repent and turn wholly to Jesus. *"Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"* (James 4:7, WEB).
The feelings of being "shushed" or controlled must be resisted with the Word of God. Speak Scripture aloud over yourself. Declare, *"The Lord is my helper. I will not fear what man can do to me"* (Hebrews 13:6, WEB). Isolation is another tactic of the enemy. While it’s important to seek God in solitude, withdrawing from all fellowship is dangerous. *"Let’s consider how to provoke one another to love and good works, not forsaking our own assembling together, as the custom of some is, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching"* (Hebrews 10:24-25, WEB).
Your frustration with the church and feelings of being "sabotaged" by prayers or religious affiliation must be brought to God. The church is not perfect—it is made up of flawed people—but it is the body of Christ. If you have been hurt or misled, we pray for healing and wisdom to find a biblical, Christ-centered fellowship. *"Don’t forsake the assembling of yourselves together, as the custom of some is"* (Hebrews 10:25, WEB). However, if you are referring to prayers that seem to invite trials rather than deliverance, remember that God does allow testing to refine our faith, but He never tempts us to evil. *"Consider it all joy, my brothers, when you fall into various temptations, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. Let endurance have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing"* (James 1:2-4, WEB).
Finally, your belief that the Bible has "robbed" you of progress is a distortion that must be corrected. The Word of God is alive and powerful, *"sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and is able to discern the thoughts and intentions of the heart"* (Hebrews 4:12, WEB). It is not the Bible that has failed you, but perhaps a misunderstanding or misapplication of it. We encourage you to seek sound biblical teaching and to approach Scripture with a heart open to the Holy Spirit’s guidance.
Now, let us pray together for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up Your child who is under severe attack. Lord, we bind every spirit of fear, confusion, torment, and suicide in Jesus’ name. We break every curse, every hex, every word spoken against this beloved one, and we declare that no weapon formed against them shall prosper. Father, we ask You to surround them with Your angels, to guard their mind, body, and spirit. Heal them from every wound—physical, emotional, and spiritual. Restore their memory, their peace, and their joy.
Lord, we rebuke the spirit of hatred and violence toward their mother. Soften their heart, Father, and fill them with Your love and forgiveness. Heal their mother from the effects of her accident, and break any spirit of covetousness or bondage that has taken hold of her. We pray for reconciliation and peace in their home.
We come against every lie of the enemy that has taken root—lies of witchcraft, of being controlled, of being sabotaged, of being cursed. Lord, expose every deception and fill this precious one with Your truth. Let them know that they are *more* than a conqueror through Christ who loves them (Romans 8:37).
Father, we pray for deliverance from every suicidal thought, every urge to harm themselves or others. Fill them with Your hope and purpose. Remind them that You have plans for them—plans for good and not for evil, to give them a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11).
We pray for their mind, Lord. Heal any damage from trauma, from psychosis, from the effects of medication or medical procedures. Restore their ability to think clearly, to remember, and to function without fear. Break the power of any red light or external trigger that is causing distress.
Father, we ask for godly fellowship. Bring people into their life who will speak Your truth, who will encourage them, and who will walk with them in this season. Break the spirit of isolation and fill them with a desire for healthy, biblical community.
Lord, we pray for their relationship with You. Draw them closer to Jesus. Let them know His love, His peace, and His power. Break any fascination with darkness and fill them with a passion for Your Word and Your presence.
Finally, Father, we ask for Your provision and progress in their life. Break the spirit of mediocrity and low expectations. Give them goals, dreams, and a vision that aligns with Your will. Let them walk in the abundance of life that Jesus died to give them.
We thank You, Lord, for hearing our prayers. We trust in Your faithfulness and Your power to bring breakthrough. In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
We urge you to continue seeking God daily through prayer, Scripture, and worship. Put on the whole armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18) and stand firm. If you do not have a Bible-believing church or counselor, we strongly encourage you to find one. You are not alone in this fight—Jesus is with you, and He has already won the victory. *"But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ"* (1 Corinthians 15:57, WEB). Stay in His Word, stay in prayer, and do not give up. The Lord is your strength and your shield. Trust in Him.
