Anonymous
Beloved of All
I keep sinning, and I’ve become an isolated person. I’m over a year sober from drugs and alcohol, and I even stopped sleeping with women! It’s been a couple of years now. But every week I fall short to sin and indulge myself in pornography and masturbation. This is the only thing that’s holding me back from being completely happy. I’m not free from this; I keep repenting and keep falling back. I know I can’t give up… I didn’t get sober right away; it took a lot of tries…. But this is on another level. I feel really guilty and ashamed. I get anxiety after I do it for 7 days! I don’t even feel connected to God because I know I messed up; when I pray, I feel disconnected—but I know that He listens. I got to be stronger than this.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.