I am Colin Woody and I am going through the same situation and I will pray for you. Trust in God and don't take anyone for granted. Do the best you can everyday. Thank God everyday. I am. I have been. He has really helped me out. We just separated and I believe God's will be done. Its very hard, but things will get better. Lift your burdens and troubles to God and let him take care of these for you. We are only human. God is almighty, everlasting, loving, forgiving, the beginning and the end, most high. I did a lot of wrong things to my ex wife and now I am paying for it dearly. I understand how you feel. I will pray for you in Jesus most beautiful name. AMEN!!