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I don't know how he is coping, what he is thinking, feeling or what he is going to do or not do. I have no idea what my dreams mean. Give me wisdom. Lord I don't want to walk away from him cause well I know he showed interest in me like it made me feel so good and I started to like him more and more, the feelings grew stronger. I have learned though I am only young, love is hard to find and some people struggle for decades not finding it. I even some what think an attraction from both people to one another is so hard to find yet I believe you gave me it, you lead me to it. We share the same interests, I love how he talks about himself cause I am so interested in him and I want to know more and more. I like how we could have a conversation and we have many interests, I saw he was like the male version of me but I couldn't express myself to him. I was so worried about what he would think of me, so insecure and low confident and during this time. I have to keep the faith alive this is what a part of my dream was telling me. I have to believe you brought us together, I have to believe some how you love and care for the both of us, I have to believe we are meant to be. I must believe that we will have a long lasting an great relationship. All I ask is that you help me not be insecure, help me not be low confident, make this naturally happen for me, I want to give him eye contact, how else are we going to be together, I want to say what I want, do what I want and not worry about what he thinks of me or anyone else does. I want to watch what I say to him. I feel so rejected by him and millions of things in life like my career. I feel like I just want to watch what I say to him and treat him so nicely, always treat him nicely. Father God this is something I really want. I feel like it will take some time, but I need your help to break the feelings of shame and rejection and hurt and help me let go of all the past. Help me not worry about how you will make this miracle happen. I think I have made the decision to let him contact me but this is going to be a miracle, Lord please I ask you in Jesus name speak to him, comfort him, take away those feelings of rejection and hurt, tell him to forgive me, tell him to have faith in me that I am changed that this will be a great relationship, always remind him of the good about me, like the face he fell in love with, the moment we first met, the times we laughed, the times he found me funny, make him smile and laugh as he remembers them, remind him of the times we talked. Father I am so sorry for messing up. I feel like there was nothing good in me, how could he have even persisted with me. Just please give him supernatural faith that I am changed and give him the feeling if he seeks me he will be so happy and this will be a long lasting and great relationship. I don't want anyone else. I don't think about anyone else. I don't just want to be with him for like 10 years then find some one else. I want to be with him forever. I am so sorry God. Help me, tell him to contact me. Don't let him have a partner, block his ways as you are wise and you are loving, put us together so I can make him happy, help me not to be selfish. Save him for me and cause him to contact me. Don't let me wait too long and please lead us not into temptation. Amen.
