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my whole life I've been condition in a Caribbean household, and the household has been overprotective, as well as it has its toxic moments and I've always felt like my voice was small. I guess that you can say I'm the black sheep of my family. I'm always misunderstood. I'm viewed as erratic and rebellious. Sometimes they'll call me disrespectful, but it's really me just always been on my defense and I've tried several different things such as talking to them in a calmer tone changing my perspective or even simply just trying to get my point across so they understand me, but none of that has worked now that I'm older I'm 25. I have done everything right? Abide my dad's rules, but I've reached my breaking point where I can no longer be manipulated, they used surveillance as a form of protection, but it is a form of control and I can't be restricted anymore and even when I say I'm a grown-up adult and I'm allowed to do these things and I do want respectful matter I get yelled at and it triggers a drama response that I have ever since I was little and recently had to blow up with my family where they done something similar to what happened when I was little where I felt because I'm the youngest my voice is never heard and I always feel like I have to defend myself because I don't have nobody in my corner, but I protected my peace and I distance myself with my family, but I know it's not a healthy thing where even come into my dad's home my anxiety is to the roof while cry or at night. I can't sleep before I wake up out of my sleep, crying or like whenever I get a notification on my phone my heart skips the beat and I feel anxiety thinking that is them calling to yell at me and I know like I shouldn't be thinking like this because it's just like a child mentality and everything is good with having a strong mind however, I've always suffered from mental health issues since I was 16 and it's really hard to rewire my mind when I've been conditioned to live in a household of control and restraint, and even when it comes to decisions that I feel like I should make it myself I never was able to listen to my inner voice. It was always still trying to overpower me and tell me what to do and how to live my life now I've came to God and pray about it however, I'm just having a difficult time still navigating this and I'm gonna continue praying just so my anxiety can die down and so I can call my nervous system and be able to be assertive but respectful, but also hold my place in boundary as an adult to continue being resilient without fear. And I think what it is it's just that I am fearful, fearful of what they will think of me fearful of getting gang upon such as everybody yelling at me, fearful of being controlled, fearful of failing.
so if anybody could pray for me because this is a situation that opened Pandora's box to a whole bunch of situations and mentally I went well I didn't danger. I'm just unwell and I acknowledge that but it's just a period of my life where everything is just crumbling down when I finally spoke up for myself, but my health and my body is facing the repercussions and I'm having a hard time navigating this to feel calm again.
 
We hear the deep pain and exhaustion in your words, and we want you to know that your voice matters—not just to us, but to God. The fear and anxiety you’re carrying have been shaped by years of feeling unheard, controlled, and even manipulated, and that weight is not something you were meant to bear alone. Scripture tells us in 1 Peter 5:7, *"Casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you."* You are not a burden to God; He invites you to lay every fear at His feet.

The toxic dynamics in your home—where love was tangled with control, and protection became surveillance—have left wounds that run deep. But we must gently rebuke the lie that your worth is tied to their approval or that your voice is "small." Psalm 139:14 declares, *"I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made."* You are not erratic or rebellious for setting boundaries as an adult; you are reflecting the dignity God has given you. Proverbs 29:25 warns, *"The fear of man proves to be a snare, but whoever puts his trust in the Lord is kept safe."* Your fear of their reactions is understandable, but it cannot dictate your steps. God calls you to walk in truth, even when it’s hard.

We also want to address the spiritual foundation here. You mentioned coming to God in prayer, and that is the first and most critical step. But we must ask: Have you surrendered your life fully to Jesus Christ? Romans 10:9 says, *"If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."* Salvation is not just about prayer—it’s about trusting Christ as your Lord and Savior, the One who breaks chains and gives you a new identity. If you haven’t made that decision, we urge you to do so today. There is no healing apart from Him.

Now, let us pray for you:

*Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our sister, lifting up the heavy burden she carries. Lord, You see the years of control, the fear, and the anxiety that have taken root in her heart. We ask that You break every chain of manipulation and silence the voices that have made her feel small. Replace her fear with Your perfect love, which casts out all fear (1 John 4:18).*

*Father, we pray for healing in her mind and body. Calm her nervous system, ease her sleepless nights, and quiet the panic that rises at the thought of confrontation. Renew her strength as You promise in Isaiah 40:31: "Those who wait for the Lord will renew their strength. They will mount up with wings like eagles. They will run, and not be weary. They will walk, and not faint."*

*Lord, give her wisdom to set godly boundaries with her family. Help her to speak the truth in love (Ephesians 4:15) and to stand firm without guilt, knowing she is an adult made in Your image. Where she has been conditioned to doubt her own voice, remind her that You are her defender (Psalm 68:5).*

*We rebuke the spirit of fear in Jesus’ name and declare that she is not alone. You are her refuge and strength (Psalm 46:1), and we ask that You surround her with godly community—people who will affirm her worth and walk with her in this season. Teach her to listen to Your voice above all others, and let her find peace in Your presence.*

*We pray for her family as well, Lord. Soften their hearts to see her as You see her. Where there is pride or control, bring conviction and repentance. Let Your love be the bridge that heals, not their own understanding.*

*Finally, Father, we ask that You continue to draw her closer to You. Let this season of struggle become a testimony of Your faithfulness. Strengthen her resilience, deepen her trust in You, and let her walk in the freedom Christ died to give her. In Jesus’ mighty name, we pray. Amen.*

You are not the black sheep—you are a beloved child of God, and He is rewriting your story. The anxiety you feel is real, but it does not have the final say. Start small: Speak truth over yourself daily, even if it’s just one verse. Seek out a biblical counselor or a trusted Christian friend who can help you process this. And remember, setting boundaries is not disrespect; it’s obedience to God’s call to steward your life well.

You are stepping into a new season, and though it feels like everything is crumbling, God is making room for something better. Keep praying. Keep trusting. His peace *will* guard your heart (Philippians 4:7).
 
Oh, dear friend, we hear you. We hear the weight of years bearing down on your shoulders, the echo of unspoken words, the fear that's become your constant companion. It's okay to feel overwhelmed, to feel like you're drowning in anxiety. You're not alone in this, and you're certainly not alone in your struggle.

We want you to know that God sees you. He sees the little girl inside you who was never heard, the young woman who's been trying to make her voice echo louder than the silence. He sees the courage it takes for you to stand up for yourself, to set boundaries, to say, "No, this is not okay." And He's proud of you. He's proud of the strength you've found within yourself to break free from the chains of control and manipulation.

It's okay to be anxious, but it's not okay to let anxiety control your life. Remember, God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7). He wants you to live in peace, not in constant worry. So, let's pray for that peace to fill your heart, for your mind to be renewed, and for your strength to be restored.

Let's also pray for your family. We ask that God softens their hearts, that they see you not as the black sheep, but as a beloved daughter who's trying to find her way. We pray that they understand that your boundaries are not a sign of disrespect, but a sign of growth and self-respect.

And finally, dear friend, we want you to know that you are loved. You are loved by God, by us, and by many others who care about you. You are not alone in this journey. Keep fighting, keep trusting, and keep praying. God is with you, and He's not going to leave you. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
 
May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy.

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.


🙏Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God solution focused heart, mind, spirit, and attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so
. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

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