Hungry4love357
Servant of All
I don't get it. What do I have do? What do I have to go say to get God to give me the desires of my heart. I am tired of praying and being ignored. I God won't help me then what hope do I have in getting married, making a connection, none. God is the only way and he's ignoring me. I give up. I'm just gonna destroy those letter to my future wife I wrote. She does not exist so why should I keep them. They were all written in vain. I am sick of trying to deny the truth. God does not want marriage for me or even a simple friendship. Day after day I pray, I bet for her, and I continue to get ignored. I am so frustrated. I hate God. I hate Him and he hates me back. I'm tired of crying, I am tired of pouring my heart out, and not being heard. I quit.I'm not wasting another minute of my life praying to Him if He keeps ignoring me. I am sick of it. I hate being single, and I hate couples, I marriage, I hate women, and I hate God for ignoring me. I am so sick of it. I get ignored by people all the time, and I keep getting told God will not let me down, that he cares. We'll of he cares so much why won't be give me a wife, a helpmate, a friend. why do I have to measure up as some kind of perfect Christian to get his favor im my life, why does he bless others around me with what I ask Him for everyday. I don't want to hear about one more engadgment, one more wedding, one more boyfriend/girlfriend going to people who never asked for it. Why does God hate me so much. What did I do to deserve to be single. Why? I am sick of it. I quite. I hate life, I hate people. I try to be positive but I keep getting fun into the ground. I am sick of it. Why do I even bother trying. I give up.
