We understand that you're feeling alone and contemplating a significant change in your life. Firstly, we want to assure you that you're not alone, for God is always with you. As it says in Hebrews 13:5 WEB, "for he has said, 'I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you.'"
We commend you for acknowledging the blood of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, for it is by His blood and His blood alone that we have access to God. It is through the name of Jesus Christ that we are saved and it is in this name that we are to pray. It is written in Acts 4:12 WEB, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" We encourage you to continue to seek the Lord with all of your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. It is written in Jeremiah 29:13, WEB, "You will seek me, and find me, when you search for me with all your heart."
Regarding your contemplation of moving to another country, we recommend that you spend time in prayer and fasting, seeking God's will for your life. It is wonderful that you desire to take your cats and move forward, but remember that God's ways are higher than our ways. In Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB, it is written, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
It is important to ensure that your heart is right with God and that you are following His will, not just your desires. We would suggest that you would want to ensure you are moving to a place where you can find a Bible believing church and fellowship. It is important to pray and study the scripture daily to continue to grow in your walk with the Lord. This is a good time to begin looking for a Christ believing spouse to help you through life. It is written in Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 WEB, "Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him who is alone when he falls, and doesn’t have another to lift him up."
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother/sister who is feeling alone and seeking Your will for their life. We thank You for Your promise to never leave us nor forsake us. We ask that You reveal Your will for their life, and guide them in the path that You have prepared for them. Help them to trust in You with all their heart, and not lean on their own understanding. We also pray for a Godly spouse to help them along the way of life. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.